What is going on explanation
Added 2022-07-19 09:44:42 +0000 UTCHello my fellow supporters,
My deepest apologies for lack of new content since the end of May. I know I´ve been posting very little since then and I feel that I owe you at least an explanation why that is. It is about my IRL situation, which I was not comfortable sharing before, but I think it is about time, since my condition only worsened and it seems I won´t be able to get back into shape anytime soon as I hoped originally. Also sorry in advance for longer text post, I know nobody like ´em very much.
The first thing is I´ve been having health problems for past 6 years or so, that affected my daily life but not that much. These problems worsened now to the point I am constantly driving to doctors for all kinds of exams, taking a lot of medication and I´ll propably need invasive surgery in near future. I am having problems with my vision, breathing, constant intensive headaches and severe dizzines and chest pains. I don´t want to go into precise details, but it is affecting my abillity to work as I worked before.
The second thing is, while I am going through this situation I also discovered that my wife has been unfaithfull for several months now and is having an affair. She also took my kids and want to live with the guy she´s cheating on me with. This kind off broke me, to the point I was unable to find will to get out of the bed for several weeks. I basically lost my family and was left all alone to deal with it and I am not able to just deal with it it seems. Again I do not want to go too much into details here, but I think you can imagine this affected my mental state in a very bad way too.
These two factors really did a number on me, I tried to work on something several times but I mostly feel like I lost my edge when making stuff and everything looked unpolished and not worth releasing at all. I am sorry. I´ll keep trying to do new content but I cannot say how long it would take me to get back into releasing at the same pace as before. Thank you for all your support over the years, I was always gratefull to have people that actually like the stuff I make, meant a lot to me.
Thankfully, yours
Niisath
