NausicaaYami

Eclipsed Elegance pt.3

Added 2025-02-08 11:00:08 +0000 UTC

Good morning everyone from yet another grey day in London 🫠

I can’t wait to leave for Bali and get sick of the sun!

Let’s spread some sunshine with the final part of this series, shot during sunset in my friend Troy Booker's apartment in NYC.

Despite being about sunshine, this shoot felt quite dark to me. I wasn’t feeling good that day—I felt depressed and uncomfortable in my body, in my face. Sometimes I’m too harsh on myself. Living this life is amazing, but there are moments when my body and mind just can’t keep up with all the traveling, changes in food, lack of sleep, jet lag, and stress.

That day, during a stunning sunset, Troy wanted to shoot a quick set in his living room with his analog camera. At first, I didn’t want to. Then, I decided to do it. He gave me this beautiful dress, but instead of feeling good, I felt even worse—like I was ruining something beautiful just by being in it. So, I decided to interpret the moment by using the dress as if I were trying to break free from it, battling with it, struggling to breathe—like I was underwater and out of breath. The shadows surrounding me became a redundant, overwhelming double cage.

When he sent me the developed photos a week later, I think I hated them.

Now, after many months, I’ve grown to appreciate them. I can see the discomfort and struggle, and I accept them. As I’ve mentioned before, sometimes it’s best to wait before looking at certain photos—to detach from the feelings of that moment until the image becomes a memory rather than an open wound. A moment I can still taste and engage with, but without feeling hurt by it.

It might not be the most beautiful series, but it’s definitely meaningful to me.

Let me know your thoughts!