Today’s Gym top vs no gym top

A topic for discussion today: I wonder why “civilized” culture hates and loves women’s chest so much?

I remember being self conscious as I started developing my breasts. I’d have a lot of nerves about my body at that time. Some of that was probably just hormones but some of it too was our society and how it views the female body. I’m sure guys deal with this as well but it’s especially hard on developing women.

I remember friends of mine with small breasts would stuff their bra. One of my friends had very large boobs and would wear big shirts to hide them. For me I was always happy with my breast size, shape. I have very light density as well so when I run they bounce a lot but do not hurt. That’s probably why I can get away going braless a lot. But it goes to show how society has made us women want to cover them up but also achieve a certain look in terms of breast size and shape. If you’ve been following me for a while you know the one thing I have been self conscious of was my nipples. Those I would try to hide. I tried bandaids, tape and later duct tape in addition to padded bras.

I remember one day waking up for school and my nipples were hard, painful. My areola was swollen as well. “What is wrong with me!?” I thought. I got made fun by guys who could see them through my shirt and bra and my friends too would tease me. Teachers had me put on sweaters and on one occasion sent me to the office.

Fortunately in the military my uniforms would cover them up.

There was a day I was working in the motor pool. We were allowed to take off our outer tops and just wear our tan t shirt. We were all sweating due to the hot Georgia weather. You could see through my shirt some and I noticed guys starting to look at me. A lot of guys would stare at me in the military but this time I knew what they were looking at. Out of fear of getting teased from soldiers, or my boss knowing I had huge hidden assets or appearing unprofessional I just put my top back on and endured the heat.

It’s a funny story now all of these experiences but at the time it was super embarrassing.

Thankfully now I work for myself, and my policy is be happy, wear what makes you comfortable and most importantly be yourself. Since starting modeling I have released all self doubt and modeled nude art.

While self confidence comes from within it has been really helpful to get comments and support from you all in my appearance. I fully embrace my unusually large or hairy features 😆 💕