i am not ok. - ROUGH RAW UNCUT 2.3.5: Depression
Added 2024-04-13 01:06:26 +0000 UTCSoo this is a very special episode of the podcast that was not planned, scheduled, or even something I planned on making an exclusive episode about, but I had to get this out. Not just for other people but for myself.
I haven't been honest, I have not been ok for quite some time now. I've been keeping myself busy with work and overloading myself to not have to think about certain things in my life, but it has taken a tole on me. I need to get to a place where I'm healthy mentally, physically, and emotionally.
A big trigger for this was my last break up. It's been quite some time but (as obvious it is to most people probably) it has really left a deep scar that will need a lot of time to heal. I haven't properly given myself that time and even though he has moved on and is happy, I have honestly still been terrified of letting go completely. I've been unhealthily clinging on, and I need to allow myself to really process it in order to let those feelings go.
After a bit of a breakdown, I wanted to make this episode for those who might be going through something similar or who cope in a similar way that i do. And I wanted to make this for me. To let myself be 100% honest with myself.
Thank you guys for your constant support.
Love you all.
Comments
Virtual hug to you mijo. Give urself the grace to feel and process your heartbreak. I get it , I empathize with you, I’ve been there. Take it day by day. Definitely talk to someone ( therapist) so they can give you new ideas on how you can process this. I think it takes guts to be as open and as human to express yourself online. Feel ur pain, set the music , get the tubs of ice cream and allow urself to grieve. As someone who has dealt from on going depression since a kid too, know that the gray, dark days don’t last forever. 🙏🏼💜
L
2024-04-13 18:41:18 +0000 UTCIt's ok to not be ok. Have to face those fears, insecurities, or whatever we're battling and grow stronger. We're here for you.
CKhorrordict
2024-04-13 01:26:02 +0000 UTC
