hi guys :( <3
Added 2024-05-18 22:25:02 +0000 UTCFOOTNOTES OF THE VIDEO IN CASE YOU DON'T WANT TO WATCH IT ALL (it's ok if you don't i still love you!):
i am very, very sorry for no videos the last week
i have been stuck in a very heavy depressive episode
i have tried to make videos but haven't been able to do it </3
it is really hard!!!
i will be back monday i just need the rest of the weekend to try and reset
depression is stupid and i hate it
i'm not going to k*** myself!
thanks for your patience and love and support
i hope you have had a really wonderful week
will make it up to you!! promise <3
love you :)
Comments
taking care of yourself is the most important thing cam! take all the time you need to feel better <3
reydua
2024-07-10 19:49:39 +0000 UTClove u
sash
2024-06-04 08:36:37 +0000 UTClove you
Luana Paes
2024-05-29 00:02:58 +0000 UTCHoping you are well take your time remember that you are loved
September
2024-05-26 21:39:51 +0000 UTCLove love love you! I'm glad that you are taking care of you, and you said it's getting better so that is good news.
BL Auntie Frankie
2024-05-23 18:24:18 +0000 UTCLove you Cam, hope you can get over this!
Katelyn Grainger
2024-05-23 16:39:24 +0000 UTClove you, cameron ❤
mai
2024-05-23 13:05:33 +0000 UTCweather here in singapore HAS been getting better after the terrible heatwave, so I hope it's good there too and a better sign for your depression. love you and take your time, no pressure cam.
sahirawr
2024-05-22 16:45:43 +0000 UTCwe're just glad you're safe and you're feeling better! take all the time you need, truly take care of yourself, we will wait for you <3
xmela
2024-05-21 16:22:35 +0000 UTCYou bring so many people so much joy and comfort, with more than enough content - I don't speak for everyone, but I hope you take as long as you need to catch your breath, live some life, feel better, love yourself again, enjoy some silly things, etc., etc. (Which is obviously an oversimplification of what you're going through, but hopefully you know what I mean.) Thanks for all you share with us, but it's really not a condition of love/support/anything ❤️
kristy mulcrone
2024-05-21 06:02:28 +0000 UTCTake the time you need to rest and relax your mind don’t worry we will always be here for you 🫶
Amber
2024-05-21 00:18:16 +0000 UTCTake your time 💖
Fleur Hubers
2024-05-20 21:59:03 +0000 UTCJust take care of yourself Cameron -- that is all that matters. This D is never the fun kind, so do what you need to do to get to a place where you feel somewhat comforted. Always know that the Chameleons are here for you if you ever need us, and I hope that you are taking this time for you xx
KieMarie134
2024-05-20 20:13:35 +0000 UTCyou have no need to apologize. please be kind to yourself, depression sucks big time I've suffered with it since I was 13 and I'm now 36. have cuts and hair dye definitely help, think its part of the mentality of oh I'm a new person now when its been done. hope the weather continues to get better for you its been insanely sunny in the UK recently
velvettears 669
2024-05-20 18:16:01 +0000 UTCDon’t you dare apologize for it ! It’s totally understandable and you need to focus on giving yourself time and the little things that make you happy on the moment. We all hope for you to get better soon 🩵
Bilot Super
2024-05-20 11:40:26 +0000 UTCJust take care of yourself
Shafa manzoor
2024-05-20 10:52:58 +0000 UTCHEYY DONT APOLOGIZE FOR THAT ITS NOT NEEDED. WE ARE ALL SUPPORTING YOU. TAKE YOUR TIME CAM 🫶🏻
H1tpsHoshi
2024-05-20 09:45:43 +0000 UTChope you're doing alright cam, take all the time you need ❤️
gemma
2024-05-20 06:04:12 +0000 UTC😅 The footnotes speak to me, literally that’s how I sum it up to everyone who knows of my depression. “Just a depressive episode, don’t worry I won’t kill myself” Anywho, you got this! Take care and we will see you when it happens 💜
Brittney Danielle
2024-05-20 01:34:41 +0000 UTChey,your videos help and confort a lot o people so its okay to take you time to fell better ,you enjoying the series or videos its whats make us happy so we can wait and enjoy together all the beautifull thing we can
lunalvsaHao
2024-05-19 21:45:50 +0000 UTCHappy if making videos gives you joy and routine and I also don't think anyone's upset if you put out the videos according to how you feel !
Papuriko Pp
2024-05-19 11:32:35 +0000 UTCthank u so much for giving us a little update! it’s lovely to see u and hear from u again and i’m glad to hear u’re doing a little bit better than before. please take all the time and space u need and be gentle with urself. u are so loved! 🩶🩶🩶
malina
2024-05-19 10:22:58 +0000 UTCTake ur time its alright we always love and support you <3333
M4r3h4ll
2024-05-19 10:07:01 +0000 UTCNoo please don't apologize. Your Health is always the first priority and please take all the time you need to feel better again<3 We can wait until then
Banana
2024-05-19 09:46:12 +0000 UTCJust look forward to whatever you want to share, whenever you are up to sharing it (in your own time and in your own way). Sending you a virtual hug.
Gina ODierno
2024-05-19 08:40:02 +0000 UTCI'm always happy to hear from you, even just the little updates 😇 please take the time you need <3
Kat S
2024-05-19 08:35:18 +0000 UTCHi ! I was planning to just comment : “This haircut look great on you !”. Because It really fuckin does. But I have others things to say that maybe you might like to hear.but hey don’t know I am just assuming.. I am currently struggling with depression and I recognise myself in almost every word you say. You have expressed yourself so well. Regardless of the effort doing this video has taken from you. I know damn well how paralysing, suffocating and desperate a depression episode is. I have also been torn between ending it all and , as I like putting it, firming the storm until it dies down and I am able to live again. I am glad you and I made the right choice. Every episode feels humiliating, but in the same way, every move towards recovery is elevating and is to congratulate. So you ! You deserve so much praise. It seems impossible for me to even imagine starting a YouTube channel, to film videos for a bunch of strangers to see, to edit them, to open a Patreon account (btw you are the only creator I am subbed to.) amongst other things, some we are not aware of. Plus, you are sooooo caring, it is impossible for me not to mention it. As others have said, there is nothing to make up for. You didn’t disappoint anyone, if anything, it rubs me the wrong way that this stupid depression has eaten time that was yours and stopped you from doing good for yourself. Even if we sometimes still watch TV or play games, it is completely pointless if we do so taking a 20th of a breath, crippled with anxiety and the feeling of being a hopeless fail of a person. I respect you greatly for overcoming it yesterday ! Now let me be more open. At first I was only here to see you discover boys planet/zerobaseone but I think even if you start making entirely unrelated content, I will stay. Because you are a great human being, really. I don’t remember where exactly you are from in Canada but I am from a city called Toulouse in the south of France. What I am trying to say is, you are connecting many nice people from all over the world. That seems obvious of course but as I said I AM FROM FRANCE ! It basically entails that almost every single person is constantly whining and criticising everything they can to entertain themselves. No flipping compassion taught there. Legit, nice people have learned to be nice and talent from other countries’ culture. So this connection you create is so precious to people like me whose day to day environment is negative. You need positive relationships to get out of depression, other wise nothing makes you want to break out of you shell. For me, it sometimes just feels pointless to communicate with my peers. So I have very grateful to you Cameron. I am just grateful, I do not expect anything from you regarding the social media aspect of your life. Contrariwise, I would suggest you do a lot of new little things like planting leaks, flowers, radishes, learn a new language, embroidery, cooking exotic foods, going on a hike, to an amusement park, going in a swimming pool, sauna, try to make music, learn a little bit about a new instrument.. to sum it up : don’t stop to your flattering haircut and practice things you like, discover things that peak your interest even momentarily. I think this is a good place to stop writing. This has been very long and, hopefully, coherent. Much love, meeeee. ❤️
Jean Bon
2024-05-19 07:40:23 +0000 UTChey, it's ok im in depression too, you are not alone!!
Aluka 2709
2024-05-19 06:55:21 +0000 UTCHey Cam! When I’m feeling down I often find solace in watching kpop shows and listening to their music. Then I find that wow, these groups that I follow actually cheer me up a lot. I hope you remember that you can enjoy these groups, their shows, their music by yourself sometimes without having to sit in front of a camera to make a reaction video out of it. We’ll always be here waiting and we understand you. Please don’t feel so inclined to stick to a schedule all the time. After all, humans are animals of change. Please allow yourself to go at the pace that’ll make you most comfortable. 🥰
Fay Kittina
2024-05-19 04:52:16 +0000 UTCIt's okay Cam, I've been feeling the exact same way for 2 months. It take so much out of you to even do the daily things you're supposed to, let alone put yourself out there for others. Jusy know I(and others) always appreciate whenever you do🫶🏿 videos always bring me joy and comfort, but make sure your okay first! Also, love the haircut♡
Ash
2024-05-19 04:34:05 +0000 UTCPs love the haircut :) hair holds memories so a clean cut for a fresh start is perfect ✨😎
Chantal 💘
2024-05-19 02:39:02 +0000 UTCYou gotta let yourself take the time that you need & im so glad you’ve been doing that! Also so glad you’re feeling a little better today & determined to get better in general, you can do this ❤️❤️ love you!!
Chantal 💘
2024-05-19 02:38:12 +0000 UTCDon’t worry Cam, I’ve been going through a similar rut myself. I look forward to seeing ur videos again!
Annika Olson
2024-05-19 02:28:35 +0000 UTCDon't stress out or beat yourself up over it! I've been going through a similar episode the past couple of weeks so I understand. Take care of yourself <3
reydua
2024-05-19 01:48:14 +0000 UTCi'm also neurodivergent with persistent depression, and yeah, life sucks!! glad you're here though. :) <3 truly, no need to apologize. as long as you're okay, that's all that matters!!
aerifia
2024-05-19 00:52:44 +0000 UTC<33333333333
Romeo_is_alone
2024-05-19 00:44:13 +0000 UTCLove you Cameron! We totally understand and I appreciate how you always update us and let us know how you're doing. We love any and all videos you share with us whenever you are able :) Take your time we are always here. (also I love the new hair!!)
J.C.
2024-05-18 23:59:12 +0000 UTCYou > videos every day of the week. Hang in there ! 🫂❤️
Mairead
2024-05-18 23:58:32 +0000 UTCI'm glad you let us know. I know you do what you can. Your videos are really helpful when I'm struggling with my own depression, and I really appreciate that. 💜
Evan Murray
2024-05-18 23:51:28 +0000 UTCtake your time cam!! we understand.. hope you feel better🩵
jay🩷
2024-05-18 23:45:38 +0000 UTC🩵🩵🩵
StephK
2024-05-18 23:41:20 +0000 UTCCameron I know you are vegan so dairy kefir is not an option for you but you could try coconut kefir, also kombucha, kimchi basically anything fermented will start to replace the bad bacteria in your gut to eventually help your brain.More probiotics and prebiotics to help get balance back. I am three years in and come off my medications that I was taking for 16 years. Sorry for giving so much information but wanted to give you some hope and let you know you can get some control over your head/brain . Sending you a huge hug Cameron xxx.
Mica Mac(mee-sha mack)
2024-05-18 23:31:25 +0000 UTCseratonin and dopamine and other chemicals the brain needs to control mood are made in the gut. Some doctors now believe that being deprived of the right bacteria (micro biome) in our gut leads to an imbalance of chemicals in the brain, hence depression and mood disorders
Mica Mac(mee-sha mack)
2024-05-18 23:23:13 +0000 UTCI appreciate so much you talking about your battles. You the only person I ''know'' who this open about their struggles . Just seeing someone I share simular experiences with be this cool ,talented, creative and above all so strong and loving helped me a lot ❤️ Also I won't stop repeating it : you so productive , Cam. Your audience adores you for a reason ,so we can wait. If you feel up to it we can watch something super fresh from ZB1 in few days .They just had a comeback, made new Idol Human Theatre episode and probably many more promotion stuff. Love you ,short-haired king 🤴. Don't feel pressured to do extra things.
Misha Goldfinch
2024-05-18 23:21:07 +0000 UTCHi Cameron so sorry for what you are going through, no need to be sorry. I have suffered from anxiety and depression for most of my life.....it really sucks!!. I also have Crohn's disease and found out a couple of years ago that
Mica Mac(mee-sha mack)
2024-05-18 23:19:55 +0000 UTCTake all the time you need!💗 we will be waiting for you~
Tilda
2024-05-18 23:12:48 +0000 UTCwe are the kind of people who understand
Henly
2024-05-18 22:59:31 +0000 UTCsending you lots of love, no need to say sorry take your time <3
Clara B
2024-05-18 22:53:35 +0000 UTClike the others have said theres no need to feel sorry and you dont half to push yourself take your time <3
mark lees bruised knee
2024-05-18 22:51:20 +0000 UTCDepression sucks- but don't take the blame for it. Depression is a beast that occassionally attacks your brain and paralyses it making it hard to do things. It isn't your fault, and frankly videos would be no fun if you weren't enjoying it too anyway. I don't mind waiting. It takes time, and it relapses we get it. You are what we value. Stay strong, I believe in you ❤️
Ixaala
2024-05-18 22:50:17 +0000 UTCthere's no need to apologize. It's important to take time for yourself as well. I'll never leave, I'm sure none of us will. Ur stuck with us ☺️💜💜💜 Also love the new haircut 👍🏽
Lizet🌼
2024-05-18 22:48:37 +0000 UTCCam first and foremost we love and care about YOU the videos can wait for however long you need, never force yourself to make content for us, we enjoy the videos when you enjoy it. Thank you for telling us how you're doing and how you feel. Take all the time you need, I know depression is no walk in the park I know how bad episodes can get, so never apologize for it, take your time as much time as you need. We love you cam 🧡 also your hair looks great!
Brooke G
2024-05-18 22:48:31 +0000 UTCYou don’t need to feel sorry for not feeling well! I went through depression and yeah it’s not fun. Take all the time you need :) I love watching your videos cuz it really feels like I’m watching it with a friend and I genuinely want you to enjoy doing it and not force yourself. I know life can suck sometimes, not the best time for me right now too but better days will come ❤️ they always come. Take care of yourself ❤️
flores
2024-05-18 22:44:09 +0000 UTCWe love u a lot honestly and take all the time you need 💙
Cat OnTheRoof
2024-05-18 22:43:16 +0000 UTCI always appreciate your vulnerability when talking about mental health. I've struggled with depression and anxiety for the majority of my life. It feels crazy hearing someone say the exact thing I've felt. I love you so much. I hope you rested well and continue to. Take your time. Things will get better for us 💕
cherri
2024-05-18 22:42:53 +0000 UTCi hope that with this patreon ur able to do stuff that makes u feel the best possible! including having a schedule, not having a schedule, etc. really anything it takes! as someone with similar experiences i am always wishing the best for you! see you whenever you next upload even if its a week in the future 💕
Iris
2024-05-18 22:40:26 +0000 UTCPlease don't apologise and don't force yourself. Take your time, we are not going anywhere. And thank you for sharing about your feelings, I wish I was brave like you. I believe you will win this battle. Also new haircut is badass, I like it!
Lanfear
2024-05-18 22:37:40 +0000 UTCI know how hard depression and anxiety can be, but you don’t need to make up for anything, we love you no matter what, so you just need to take care of yourself and do anything yo need to in order to feel better first. We’re here shouting for you!!! So don’t need to rush if you don’t feel like it. Whenever you need it, we’re here, so please just don’t give up! 🫶🏻
100 karla
2024-05-18 22:36:57 +0000 UTCHey Cameron your hair looks great!! Don’t even worry about posting or anything, please try to take care of yourself first. I know it’s not easy but I hope you feel better soon. I’m not sure what to say :( I’m not very eloquent, but just know we’re cheering for you and we care about you ❤️ and i totally get what you mean about feeling “cringe” when talking about your own depression bc i feel the same way. Thank you for updating us despite that and despite how hard it must be to post anything at all. For all of us struggling, let’s all try our best to beat depression 💪❤️
Milam
2024-05-18 22:36:17 +0000 UTCI like the hair. Please don't feel bad it is an unnecessary burden for you. As you said we could always leave patreon but we have stayed because not only is your current content something to look forward to but you past content is so fun to watch along with. I hope it helps you to know that even when you're not feeling great the videos you have made make others feel better. At your hardest moments I hope you can feel a sliver of the happiness you have provided me and others through just being you.
Faxe11
2024-05-18 22:34:51 +0000 UTCTake care of you and upload when you feel better ☺️
RbK DC
2024-05-18 22:33:32 +0000 UTCHope you get better😊 upload when your ready🥰
Astrid
2024-05-18 22:32:25 +0000 UTCTake all the time you need, Cameron. I know the struggle of depression, you do not need to apologise for anything <3
Lee_Knowing_
2024-05-18 22:32:08 +0000 UTCcameron pls pls pls take care of yourself and take as long as you need. Please don’t feel pressured to put out videos if u r not in a good place, ur health and mental wellbeing is the priority, so pls don’t apologise. 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
Leena Aamir
2024-05-18 22:30:38 +0000 UTCLove you please rest and take care of yourself!! If you need more time, take it ❤️ Get well soon!
alijvia
2024-05-18 22:30:26 +0000 UTCwe love u so much cam :( I know how debilitating depressive episodes are so please rest up and don't push yourself too hard before you're ready :( just focus on yourself right now ok! ❤️🩹
Sam sam (Lan zhan)
2024-05-18 22:29:31 +0000 UTCTake as long as you need, Cam! We love you🫶🏻
Maddi Albert
2024-05-18 22:29:29 +0000 UTChave some good rest Cam! we're here for you and we love you ♡ take your time!
Oliveeer
2024-05-18 22:28:52 +0000 UTClove you dearly cam
paige 🌾
2024-05-18 22:28:16 +0000 UTCTake care of yourself and rest all you need, don't worry 😊 💜
Eme
2024-05-18 22:28:05 +0000 UTC💚
dontfwkyle
2024-05-18 22:28:03 +0000 UTC
