Shego set split in two. Clarifications!
Added 2022-08-02 18:45:34 +0000 UTCOk, so got a few messages about the Shego set being split in two parts. Now let me be clear, YES! I did originally said I was planning of releasing it in ONE set today.
And that didn't happen. If you are upset about that, you have my sincere apology. I did try to make it happen, but I couldn't. I get the frustration.
But, I'm also getting some (very few, but some), who are asking to walk back on my decision, soldier up and finish the rest of set now now! ASAP.
And I have some saying that it's not fair I did this with the Shego set because I just wanted to work on a game project instead.
Let me be very VERY clear here.
1) I will NOT go back on this decision, and will not overwork myself just to get that set done as soon as possible. NOT going to happen. You'll get the rest of the set about, a 100 more pages I think. NEXT month.
2) If your only take away from my initial post is "He wants to make games", then sorry to say, but you brushed over the part where I mentioned mental health issue due to stress and overwork to meet deadlines. (Writing a 200 page + image story is no joke. It's draining, and takes a LONG time).
Now if you're one of these folks. Know that I understand how you feel and was expecting some to react like this it. Yes, I did say I wanted to deliver the Shego set not as a split but as a last FULL set before I made the change. So yep, understand why this might rub some of your the wrong way.
But you are SO wrong as to WHY I decided to still do the split now in the end.
I didn't talk too much about the mental stress and anxiety part because... I don't like to lay out my personal issues on others. It's not something I want just lay out to my supporters. It's my business and it's my job to deal with it. I shouldn't impose myself on you.
So while I did mention it in my initial post about the up coming changes I didn't want to go too much into it.
But... Since some of you seem to think that I splitted the set because I was ... selfish? Well yeah... But I thought making game this week would be more fun, The reason is far more shall we say... Not so fun...
But alright then. I didn't want to get into this, but hey... If I have to explain, I'll explain.
This weekend, as I was working my ass off to get the Shego set done ASAP, I worked until 4 AM. (Mind you, I didn't take a single break, not even on weekend for the past month). When I woke up Saturday? I lost my balance and almost passed out. My body was NOT having it.
That is when I decided: SCREW it. I'm not doing this..
Rather then risking a total burnout, I decided to make the change NOW. I understand this might come as a bad surprise to some. But I had to do it.
Yes, I did use the remaining day to do game dev (At a CHILL and RELAXED pace). Happy, and god forbid ACTUALLY enjoying myself rather then forcing myself to "just get the 200+ pages ready by the 2nd of the month or ELSE?".
If I reach a point where making image sets for the day is something I dread doing rather then Enjoy, then I think a change has to happen. So... I made a call. I decided to split the Shego set. And finish it later.
It will benefit NO ONE to force myself to the point of breaking down and just stopping for days or weeks to recover from a burnout. I'm not there yet, but believe me. I could feel I was going there.
So yes, I took a decision, came back on what I said about finishing the Shego set in ONE go and decided to split it to allow my brain to just... BREATHE. Just BREATHE for a few days... Not to just take break. No no... I still worked. I still made content. I didn't take no vacation here.
But to do my work in a way that is Healthy and enjoyable.
I hope that this gives you a better understanding as to why I felt I had to apply the changes now.
But if you still feel upset about this after I explained this right here. and wish to not support me anymore. I perfectly understand, but if have to chose between my health and happiness over money?
That's a VERY easy choice to make.
Still it is my hope that most of you, my loyal supporters who got my back.. Allowed me to do this as my JOB (What a dream. I'm SO SO VERY grateful for that), will understand that I have done nothing but work my ass off to deliver content into your hands. To the point that I dare say, I pushed my mental and creative limits to meet expectation.
I still very much intend to pour ALL my energy into my I do and give LOTS LOTS of content for you all to enjoy and more...
All that I ask... Is to be allowed to breathe. To actually create this content not because it is a chain around my neck but because I'm passionate about doing it.
That when I'm entering the last week of the month, I don't have to stress and bite nails because "Oh no! If I want to do the story of the set the way I wanted it to, I still have 100 MORE pages to go and I'm running out of time Better get ready for some sleepless nights and cancel all my plans for the weekend". Not going to keep doing that sorry. Splitting the sets when needed allows to be more flexible while still deliver you, I dare say... CHUNKY content each month. (I mean seriously, Part 1 of the shego set is 130 Pages long. Sure it ain't finished, but if that's not acceptable then dang are you demanding.)
The only alternative to splitting the set in two? Make 70 page per set and DONE. No more then that from now. But then, You would not have the nice sets you had until now. Is that really what you want?
I believe splitting it, spreading the workload a bit is the BEST compromise. For everyone.
That's it, sorry for an other announcement today, but I wanted to get this out ONE time and get it over with.
I perfectly understand if anyone is kinda bumped out that they didn't get the full finished Shego set this month. Yes I know I said I would, but I just reached my near breaking point, and had to do something NOW.
I hope this long explanation will help alleviate doubts about my intention when I decided to make the split now. And that they will understand why I had to do it.
If some of you feel that it's not acceptable and wish to leave, I hold no grudge against you. It's your money you are perfectly entitled to decide how you spend it.
But save yourself the trouble of asking me to go back on my decision. It's not going to happen.
For those of you who chose to stick around, THANK YOU. And I promise, only good things will come from this (Regardless if you are here just for my image set, the games, or femboy stuff).
Thanks for you attention and support as always. This will be the last time I'll make an announcement mentioning my personal stress. But I felt that is was necessary due to false assumptions being made.
Still, you have my apology for splitting the Shego when I said I would not.
Sucks, I understand. But I had to do it.
That's about it.
Take care.
Comments
I think it's a pity, that you have to explain your decision, downright have to excuse it! Because I think, that the more fun you have on your work, the merrier it is for me;-)
japani
2022-09-10 16:43:00 +0000 UTCTotally agree with your post. You need your own time as much as the rest of us. Take your time and do what you want to do when you want to do it. We will support you in whatever you decide.
Phillip Kettless
2022-08-04 14:43:02 +0000 UTCThis quantity of work you are doing is extraordinary. I began making a RPG game with RPG maker MZ and it takes lots of time to make it work correctly and to set up the maps, the tilesets, the searching of sounds and music free of rights, etc. May be in the future I can help with the games but now I'm just a begginer XD. I can't imagine making also the drawings and the quantity of images. Do as you can and don't be stressed. It's also exciting waiting for second chapters or new patches.
Landa
2022-08-03 16:44:21 +0000 UTCThank you. It's not so much that I need to slow down, but rather I need to not be bound to release a FINISHED product by X date or else. That's what really pushes stress on me. It's not that I don't want accountability, I very much intend to still delivery LOTS of content. I just want some freedom on how I deliver, what I prioritize on doing etc... And not feeling enslaved by a schedule set by the image set that I cannot ever deviate from. That's really it, I love doing what I do and have no plans on slowing down really. But I need to be able to make decision on what I decide to put focus on and when. And move things around when I need to reduce stress. That's about it really.
Tonkatsu-chan
2022-08-02 20:01:26 +0000 UTCIt wasn't all that bad, it's not like they got really nasty or anything. I think they just got the wrond idea. And I felt the need to clarify thing. But thank you.
Tonkatsu-chan
2022-08-02 19:58:03 +0000 UTCHey, you're just a person scraping by like the rest of us, and doing a job that's really really tough mentally. I mean, at the end of the day you're basically a small business owner working almost entirely by yourself. I think the overwhelming bulk of your followers just appreciate that you're talented and good at what you do, passionate about the content and about the community it fosters, and just want that to continue. I hope you can find a way to de-stress, and get back to just having fun, even if it means a reduced content output. As it is, you put out more than literally any other single creator I've ever come across, so I think we can all handle if you need to dial it down a notch to not die. :P So thanks for all the work that you do for the little community you created, and I think all of us really do appreciate it. ^_^
Nauro
2022-08-02 19:56:30 +0000 UTCSorry you went through that, I hope its a loud minority and doesnt effect your flow and life. choices dont always vibe with everyone but having people flat attack your path is just too much.
teirai
2022-08-02 19:45:08 +0000 UTC