Weekly Update

This might sound familiar but... I had a great week and a rough weekend.

Production wise, I couldn't be happier. I finished the layouts on Monday (2 days earlier than expected), on Tuesday I posted the cover and the first page on Thursday. On Friday I rewrote my script for the last time, added 3 pages to the book and reworked the layout on 5 pages to make it fit. That, my friends, is a hell of a week.

It's on the personal stuff that things went sideways. My step-dad finally returned home on Thursday. He's still alive but will live with the sequels for the rest of his life. I'm not going to add to much on this since it is his story. I just hope that he won't be too discouraged by this.

The thing is, I suffer for anxiety from time to time. The pandemic didn't help. I woke up around 5am on Friday with a small pain around my right shoulder due to how I was positioned, but my sleeping mind when elsewhere... 10 min later I was in full panic mode thinking that I was suffering cardiac efficiency (the same as my step-dad, of course).

Well... not really thinking it. I'm familiar enough with panic attacks to recognize one when it happens, but that doesn't meant that the rest of me will calm down. This attack lasted the whole day. That's a rough day to live through.

Knowing it was a panic attack, I still managed to work on the script and all that. I also played a lot of "Sniper Elite 5"... as long as I was distracted, I was fine. No symptom at all. But as soon as I let my mind drift, the attack was back to its full intensity. Anyway... as I said, played on my PS5 until really late just to be sure I would fall asleep as soon as possible (amazingly it worked) and I was fine when I woke up Saturday morning.

I had a small attack on Saturday after noon, based on a small headache and a fit of high pressure. But I managed to calm myself down this time around. It felt like an aftershock of the main one (similar cause, same issue).

That's it. I hope I'm done with this for a while. I definitely need to call my doctor about this tomorrow. I never told her about my anxiety issues because I keep forgetting about it in-between fits, but they are now starting to happen way to frequently for my liking. If things keep going in that direction, I might start having anxiety crisis about having anxiety crisis : P

THIS WEEK:

The plan is to continue on the SW comic. This book is darker than my usual stuff. More personals for the characters. I think I'm still with Patreon's guideline but you never know. They are keeping it vague on a purpose. I might have to play on the safe side and not push it on Patreon. I'll think about it.

I'm sometime tempted to open a "Subscribstar" account to able me to create without the hassle but at the same time I'm no to crazy about joining that nest. No censorship also means associating myself with a bunch of stuff I don't condone. It would also mean working without Paypal... And because of the Ukraine war, I'm not even sure my bank would accept collecting from a Russian company to begin with... so Patreon it remains. Maybe, someday, we'll have a better option.

That's it for now. Thank you guys so much for your continual support. There would be no way for me to keep doing this if it wasn't for you.

I'll see you soon!
Alx