Diary entry 3 ❤️ Part 2

Enough of the sad stuff for now though.. I’ve been sat on Google trying to cheer myself up typing in ‘buy giant malamute’..

Yes, I want a GIANT dog (I want a smaller one too but the giant ones are harder to find and me being the weirdo that I am I thought I‘d begin with the harder job, in the middle of the night)..

I also like Samoyeds (they look like doggie polar bears)  but apparently they shed a ton and I couldn’t find any available back home.. not even one 🤷‍♀️

So you know dogs and plastic are my weaknesses and what make happy.. It may be a little while till I have a family of my own so this is what will keep me busy for now.. I’d love a few kids (perhaps 3, don’t mind whether they are boys or girls) so my future life may be chaos, but  happy chaos 😊

I’ve noticed it’s very rare for girls in the boob world to end up in stable/happy relationships and I really don’t want to end up that way.. I see a lot of the original 90s/2000s big boob stars struggling in their personal lives or working as escorts into their 40s or 50s because there isn’t much else they know or think they can do.. 

More often than not unfortunately girls in the boob world end up with guys who are using them, for money, for fame, for whatever.. and I realised quite early on that these guys are the ones who’ll be answering messages or running their websites, in some cases talking to people as if they are these women.. 

I would say the majority of women in that ‘plastic‘ world are in dysfunctional relationships but it‘s under the surface so you don‘t tend to see it.. It’s one of the reasons I decided to distance myself from a lot of it.. 

I would think and think about it all, from girls with complications and needing to explant/replace, instead saying they were going ’bigger’ because they were scared of losing fans (one girl literally told me she refused antibiotics because it gave her an upset tummy) 🤦‍♀️ 

Of course she ended losing her boob altogether because she didn’t like the meds.. There was another model whose incision opened up and she decided to sew it up at home herself with a needle and some thread... Another very well known girl lost a nipple completely.. Another had a huge hole open up between her boobs right before a photo shoot so held her tits together with her hands.. Really really crazy stuff..

The saddest thing is that a lot of this could have been avoided with better care and things being talked about more.. 

It’s one reason I decided to set up my own company.. Bunny Luxe btw is getting a new name though.. I posted quickly that we have a doctor who wants to come onbard as a partner so the ‘cute’ fun name will not really work with this big tough doctor lol

As soon as the new domain name is up the Instagram name will be changed to reflect that (right now it’s just @bunnyluxe_com, please give it a follow btw if you aren’t already 😊).. 

As I‘ve said I’ve been struggling with things but today I got back online after a while.. I had to break contact with my family but my dad got in touch asking to patch up..   

It was Mother’s Day today in the US and it’s been months since I spoke to my mum.. We never had a very close relationship, in large part due to her wanting to steer me into a very different direction in life.. She wanted me have a much more conservative lifestyle, to be a wife and mother but not really much else and whilst I would love that I also craved seeing the world, trying new things, having a career and just being and doing more than just the stereotypical role of wife and mother..  

My family is Muslim btw, but as a whole definitely on the liberal side.. I‘m not practising but I have respect for those who do.. I’ve never been stopped or discouraged from plastic.. Women in the Middle East love their enhancements btw.. 

Being away from home, going thru fixing myself back up, all of it got too much, as it does sometimes.. I will try and post every day here and on Instagram so I get into a better routine ❤️ I would also love to know how you deal with bad times.. I’m sure some of you as well are going thru tough times too xx