Diary entry 3 ❤️ Part 1

I was going to post something more specific about plastic this time but this is going to be a bit of a mish mash after my last post.. 

Deep breath first 😌 

Healthwise am alright, though I’m back on antibiotics.. One side healed fast but the other has been slow and we need it be 100% okay in the next month as I head back to the UK in June.. 

I’ve always been quite strong physically, but I I stuggle in other ways.. I‘m very calm 95% of the time but when I do blow up I‘m like a volcano 🙈 So quiet or crazy.. not much inbetween lol

I remember having my first nose job in Iran years ago (I’ve had one more since) and afterwards the doctor telling my cousin “she‘s the only one on the ward who hasn‘t thrown up even though she’s been knocked out much longe than some of the others”.. Not gonna lie  I was pretty proud of myself for that.. 

In Iran nose jobs and surgeries in general are very common btw, and carry no stigma.. I don’t  know anyone who hasn’t had their nose done from Tehran and many people do it multiple times and will wear their bandages proudly down the street.. 

Later when I had a couple more surgeries girls would come into my recovery room and ask about my boobs, some of the nurses asked to see them too.. 

I did used to have a cry over the needles though.. Since I was a little kid I I’d had a fear of needles.. Not any more.. 

I’ve already mentioned once I think that before a later surgery in Tehran they couldn’t get the IV in and I got so annoyed I said “F*ck off I’ve had enough, I’m going home”.. Yes, bunny had a tantrum on the operating table 🤦‍♀️ 

(The IV issue I’ve  had a lot in the US too, actually it has gotten a lot worse in the last couple of years as we’ve done it so many times since so here in LA I am put to sleep with the mask rather than injection and then the IV is put in after)..

In the past I’ve had a tendency to overthink and get myself wound up about situations but these days I’ve learned to step back more.. 

Some of you will say well what the hell has bunny got to worry about.. All she does is hop on planes and go and have surgeries constantly 😭😭 

Well I miss having a family so much.. Sometimes I’ll be on a flight and see an older couple holding hands and wish I had that.. or even seeing people hugging at the other end.. Even typing this I’m tearing up a little bit thinking about it.. I walk in and I’m the girl with the huge boobs but I wish I was more than that..