8k custom shells, 10k milestone, what's been going on this year etc etc.

So I waited and waited to write this post and I've decided to link a document to it to post supporting points, such as screenshots.. but that's for later..

First and probably what people want to know about most is the custom expanders.. I've mentioned this quickly on my Twitter but not any details so I thought I would talk about it here a little bit.. I've had my current expanders in for a while now but been lucky enough not to have run into any problems.. My next set of shells are 8k shells and will be arriving in January.. What I'll be doing is filling them to 10k (by the Summer hopefully) then stopping for a bit.. 10k was my next milestone and what MrBunny and I had wanted as a minimum.. He and I are on a break at the moment though so for now I'm going to be doing this on my own.. 

I know there was a lot of speculation about my personal life and the truth is simply that we live far from each other, he's from Canada and as you probably know I'm from the UK.. He is and always will be very special to me,  he was the guy who encouraged me to take this journey.. Unfortunately the distance makes things incredibly difficult so we decided to call it a day - for now.. It's been very stressful having to deal with a lot of crazy stuff and people trying to fill in the blanks about what's been going on behind the scenes (some of whom jumped to some very strange conclusions)..

I'm going to quickly lay out some facts and debunk some myths ..

Firstly Martina Big had said he was my manager - not true.. I obviously don't have a manager, why would I even need one when I'm not a professional model and have no plans to be.. If I had a manager he'd literally have nothing to do lol

She also said at another point I think that he was me.. Yes, even more odd.. As I've said he's from Canada and his first language is actually French, not English, so not sure how I could pull that off.. I do speak French, but nowhere near well enough to pass myself of as actual native speaker, and besides he had been on tpb and a couple of other forums wayyy before I even came along.. One or two of the mods actually know him..

Martina was the person who decided to go pyscho on my ass after being dropped from Codename Diablo.. Actually she went after me, Lilly and also Beshine but at the time I was the only one of the three actively posting on the forum so I got the brunt of the crazy.. She accused us all of lying about our size (yes, even *Beshine* lol), very convenient for her about to declare herself the biggest in Europe.. 

It was disappointing that the mods and owners stood by and let it happen but there were business reasons.. I know it will be denied so I'm going to post the supporting documents in an attachment here later on.. I was basically thrown under the bus because I said no to what Martina agreed to with one of the site's owners..  I suppose they thought they would clean up when Martina became famous and I believe she's now also trying to go for the title of biggest in the world.. 

I didn't see it coming and I was already under a lot of stress when this started so I couldn't deal with all the drama and fallout at the time.. It escalated though to the point where even friends of mine were being targeted.. So much drama over this strange person and their obession with becoming famous..

I know some of you will doubt what I'm saying so that's why I'm going to post proof of everything that's happened.. One of the mods actually warned me no.. Ask yourself why would someone even say that if they had nothing to hide? Also ask yourself why they talked about being "honest" but allow her to continue calling herself the "Biggest in Europe" (even having it displayed in her avi) when the real biggest in the world is also a member there..

There is a lot more to this but I don't want to bore everyone here so it will be attached in another document, every point of what's happened and why.. 

I could have kept quiet but I've shed a lot of tears this year and it hurts more than you can imagine.. A lot of this was going on whilst I was in hospital recovering from burns.. 

I'm not the first girl it's happened to and I probably won't be the last.. I'll explain about another girl too and how she was targetted last year, leading to her having to leave tpb when she had been telling the truth all along.. I want to say a big (am not going to write "BIG" lol) thankyou to the people who supported me on there and have had my back.. I'm so grateful to the help you've given me.. 

At times I wondered how I was going to make it thru the year but we're finally at December and I'm hoping 2018 turns out a little bit easier and less stressful.. As I said I'm doing this on my own now and I appreciate EVERY single bit of help and support.. As I've said there's a lot more to what's happened than what I've written here and I'll try and have the attachment here asap xx

Edit* I will back on here tomorrow posting, sorry for the wait