Anger can be power...

I just finished this. Just a flash design I thought up while trying to put being pissed off about something to creative purposes.
So there won't be a comic page tomorrow, and though I did say I would make a comic about why, that's still playing out so I'd better just say it.
I've been on meds for social anxiety and depression for pretty much a dozen or so years almost continuously. More and more of them over time as my doctors try to balance out side effects of other medicines. Lately the side effects still just weren't seeming worth it, and then I had a few episodes of seriously bad side effects... so I decided to go off of them. All of them.
This has happened twice in the past decade or so, for short periods, because of insurance problems. Both of those times were cold turkey, and going off of them has it's own list of fun times. But emotionally, it's like a heavy rug over your heart has been pulled away. The first time was when I was in a relationship that I wasn't getting what I needed out of, and I suddenly was thinking " this isn't working". I went back on the meds for a few years, and the next time I was off I realized that they allowed me to tolerate situations that I don't want to be in... and a long term relationship is not really appropriate use of these meds. That's when I left that partner of 7 years. That was another temporary holiday from the drugs, but now 4 years later I'm willfully dropping them ... and my attitudes towards a lot of things has changed. These meds put you in an emotional holding pattern, and now I feel like I'm living again.
I'm re-evaluating what I want, what I want to do, and this Stray Bullet graphic novel isn't up there. Everything else I have on the shelf looks more appealing.
There's a lot more to say about what the past few weeks have been like, but this part is what's germane to you guys and this Patreon page.
I'm going to be posting comics and illustrations just like I always have, but Stray Bullet, at least for the time being, won't be figuring into it. If that's why you are here, I will totally understand if you want to leave. My feelings won't be hurt. But I hope you'll stay.
As it stands currently, I'm really enjoying doing portraits and illustrations right now. I think for the next long form comic I may do will be "cahuenga: the place on the hill" which is something I wrote to animate, and doing it in comic form will be a huge step towards that. I'll post more on that soon.


Thanks for your (hopefully) continued support, me droogs.
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