25/07/06 - 01
Added 2025-07-06 05:53:35 +0000 UTCHi dear comrades
First and foremost, please allow me to extend my sincerest apologies for having kept you waiting for such a long time.
here is so much I’ve been meaning to say, yet now that I sit down to write, I find the words don’t come as easily as I’d hoped.
To begin with, I’ve decided to completely let go of colour. I believe I’ve given it more than a fair attempt over time.
Yet, as with my most recent updates, it has felt like one failure after another. The reason is that the feeling of dissatisfaction doesn’t go away.
It lingers—persistently and relentlessly troubling me.
Because colour frightens me, I become hesitant to draw at all. And since I struggle to define things clearly through colour, I start searching for boundaries in the tiniest of details. That, in turn, disrupts the overall —distorting it, ruining it—and inevitably leading to stress.
I try to ignore it, only to be reminded again, and fall into despair. In the end, if something doesn’t satisfy me, it lingers as a source of constant frustration.
And that stress begins to manifest physically, leaving me drained and low in spirit.
So, I’ve come to accept that if something was never truly within me to begin with, then perhaps it simply isn’t there—and that’s something I must make peace with.
During the time I stepped away from posting updates, I continued to experiment with colour—only to end up repeatedly revising and ultimately discarding each attempt. As a result, I’ve now accumulated over a dozen pieces that feel more like failures than progress.
I intend to begin by stripping these works of their colour and will update them one by one in due course. Among them are some pieces I had previously worked on as commissions or requests
Though I may not be particularly skilled, I aspire to create work that is consistent and sincere.
to the end
Tinfoilhead
PS.
Lately, I’ve been feeling this quite strongly: looking at too much forensic reference photos isn’t good.
The flash light from a coroner’s camera feels like poison to me.
password - 666666
Comments
"Stay here, please — for here dwell your friends, and even those who need you. Thank you."
order6666
2025-07-10 06:06:01 +0000 UTC謝謝你的建議，你說得真的很對。我曾經懷抱希望，覺得自己內心或許對色彩還有另一種可能性。但現在沒關係了，我已經放下了。接下來，我會用我所擁有的一切，好好地畫畫。Thank you so much dear comrade Demon_Mansion
TinFoilHead
2025-07-10 01:24:55 +0000 UTCPlease feel free to experience this through the colours of your own heart. Thank you so much dear comrade Sky
TinFoilHead
2025-07-10 01:22:04 +0000 UTCI’ve come to the conclusion that doing my best with what I have is the right way. I’ve made my decision — now I’m going to run with it. Thank you so much dear comrade sleeplessknight
TinFoilHead
2025-07-10 01:20:50 +0000 UTCI am a being born of absence itself. But it’s alright, I won’t move from this place. Thank you so much dear comrade order6666
TinFoilHead
2025-07-10 01:19:07 +0000 UTC没必要陷入对自己的折磨，你的每幅作品色彩都是顶尖的，光照氛围很棒，不需要做到100%，当你接近100%的时候就会去追求110%甚至更高的效果，会陷入一个自我怀疑。只需要做到70-80%就已经很不错了，希望能调整好状态，等待你的色彩回归
Demon_Mansion
2025-07-09 10:53:15 +0000 UTCPretty sad to see them without colors :(
Sky
2025-07-09 05:28:22 +0000 UTCI find that sometime we become our own worst critics. Your work is always amazing and well researched no matter if it's in color or otherwise!
sleeplessknight
2025-07-06 21:58:28 +0000 UTCMy friend, I’m so glad you’re back! Did you run into some difficulties? I don’t know if I can help, but I’d really like to if I can.
order6666
2025-07-06 10:59:27 +0000 UTCThank you so much always dear comrade Levelin.
TinFoilHead
2025-07-06 08:32:30 +0000 UTCIn my opinion you are the most skilled gore artist i have seen
Levelin
2025-07-06 06:31:45 +0000 UTC
