A Vent Poem.
Added 2021-07-27 07:52:45 +0000 UTCTW: it’s quite dark and has a lot of personal implications of my past and a lot of tragic things, from being betrayed by close friends, being abused, physically, sh stuff too, it’s generally quite dark, but I thought maybe the art of it, could has a slight mention of hurt/death, but not in a literal way.
I want to make clear that I’m okie! Even if I’m not perfect! I wrote it to express some feelings on paper, and It’s really difficult to share things like this, but I feel like somehow if I share it, I’ll be able to get past it, I only hope it doesn’t make someone sad, I have a lot of happy too! I just felt like I curled up and let the scary and bad feelings well up for a long time, so I figured I could express them in art. I know how many had it worse than me, and it breaks my heart that so many go through so much, but it’s not the end even if there are scars. You’re loved and will always have a safe place here.
On another note, I will be making audios again as soon as my voice heals ! Should be as soon as tonight or tomorrow c: I love you all lots and feel free to share your own poems in the comments, I love to try and understand poems even if they can be so incredibly simple and complex all at once.
Walls and flowers twist and spiral,
Like curtains falling on my beguile,
Gripping hands to steal my neck,
stripping smiles, to steal my body,
Hands, slow and greedy reach through my ears,
Nails catch flesh and hearts catch tears,
And piercing howls scream to disappear.
But still no answer? Why, oh why?
What sin stains me, a bleak and creeping death,
Hate and love both kiss the bitter smell of cold breath,
Alone or together the bleeding sighs,
Clean the fleshy bruises from behind my eyes,
What am I? Why, oh why?
The hated one, who sleeps with one eye.
What more can I give? What’s more to do?
Holding tight, so tight, my skin turns blue,
Still I cry. Why, oh why?
Because your truth is nothing but lies.
Snapping innocent wings that try to fly,
Flapping and trying, despite how high,
And yet the fall remains, and curses my guise,
To learn a lesson, a lesson for me,
I’ll burn my lips, so the pain can free,
My empty eyes that look toward hope,
With puppet strings that constrict and garrote,
I love you? Why, oh why?
That who’s hand that claws and rakes,
Clutching handfuls of flesh no matter the aches,
I smile and promise I’m doing just great,
Breathing wilted petals and peeling paint,
Which live in my skin, until my vision falls faint.
Aaaaaa I’m so nervous sharing this because it’s so dark and something very deep in my past, the trauma and troubles in artistic form. I hope that sharing this can inspire y’all to express yourself without fear, I want you all the have a lovely night and I will do everything I can to make everything much better! Please feel free to ask if you have any questions of the meaning, though I will warn it’s quite dark. But I feel like through sharing it, I may be able to help someone else who went through such things. Love you all so much ;-;
Comments
I’ve been through a lot of trauma and it took a long time to be able to talk about it. But that helped. Sending hugs and happy feelings. You are not alone.
Kitty
2023-01-07 21:33:37 +0000 UTCI wish I could express what I feel like that....it's always midnight's tears
Nina j
2021-12-06 19:28:08 +0000 UTCThis was a lovely poem. I write poems for catharsis as well, they're in a collection I intend to publish next spring most likely. I hope I'll get the chance to share them with you.
Ylgr
2021-10-13 22:30:54 +0000 UTCYour poetry is expressive, and I enjoy your meter. Thank you for sharing with us 💙🖤💙
TellerOfStories
2021-08-16 05:00:00 +0000 UTCSuch a dark yet beautiful poem I understand the meaning behind and relate to..... your audios and words help me so much and I’m glad you chose to share this with your fans. Remember you’re brave and you’re strong! 💙
Leon
2021-08-07 04:12:53 +0000 UTCWith simple words you show a lot of meaning. Thank you for sharing this with us😊
2021-07-29 17:37:10 +0000 UTCIt might just be me but I don't quite understand how this is dark it's absolutely stunningly written. I hope this helps bring you comfort and peace
Jessica Patterson
2021-07-29 15:19:12 +0000 UTCSo proud of u for sharing! Writing is a great way to vent and let out everything u can't always say 💕✨
Hana
2021-07-29 14:28:00 +0000 UTCThis is really cool Cece! I loved it! Poetry is such a great art form, glad to see you have these talents 🤗❤️
Amelia Dreemurr
2021-07-29 03:17:15 +0000 UTCI feel so honored to be able to know more about CECE and have her open up like this great work! 🥰🥰🥰😍😍😍
Crystal Jubilee
2021-07-28 13:43:35 +0000 UTCCan u believe how far our family has come y’all look at us, doin slam poetry together n shii 🥰❤️
Feral Idiot
2021-07-28 08:39:22 +0000 UTCThat was beautiful and powerful 💖
Josie
2021-07-28 06:45:52 +0000 UTCIt was a beautiful poem, I could almost relate to it. I hope you continue to share more of the poems you create, they really are inspiring . :) <3
2021-07-28 06:44:52 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing, Cece!! This was absolutely beautiful.
Leia
2021-07-28 06:17:24 +0000 UTCAbsolutely powerful. I would never have the courage to share my own. That is amazing!
Thage Nillidium
2021-07-28 04:13:24 +0000 UTCSoul Stirring Beauty. Courage. 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾
Jai
2021-07-28 03:26:27 +0000 UTCWdym??
Breaux
2021-07-28 01:27:07 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing, the poems was beautiful, dark, and amazingly written!!🤍
Riahhh Hatake
2021-07-27 23:14:31 +0000 UTCAbsolutely beautiful
SpaceSpice
2021-07-27 18:49:25 +0000 UTCWow 🥺
Aniah
2021-07-27 18:19:00 +0000 UTCThis is so so beautiful! Thank you for sharing this with us❤️
queeneli
2021-07-27 17:53:31 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing that Cece! I'm glad you feel safe showing this side with us. It was beautiful! 💙💜🖤
Mikki H.
2021-07-27 17:47:16 +0000 UTCThank you for being brave enough to share with us. You are such a talented and amazing person. I am so happy I found your work and everyday it brings a smile to my face and when I feel sad or alone I know that I can listen to your audios and feel HAPPY.
Breekins
2021-07-27 17:46:15 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing poem, your work, and some information about who you are and what motivated you to do voice acting, I know it isn't easy sharing certain things about your life, and I know we haven't met, but by you sharing info about yourself it really makes me feel like we are friends! Thank you Cece! <3
Belphie's Cow Plushie
2021-07-27 17:33:16 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing such the poem. I often find it hard to share poetry because its one of those tropes that people just love to rip on and make fun of.
☢️KamiCutie☢️
2021-07-27 16:05:32 +0000 UTCI'm really into reading dark stuff and this poem was just beautiful❤ Thank you for sharing it with us! The poem kinda reminds me of how my head is sometimes. I haven't really gone through what you went through, but just knowing you're always striving to move forward is really inspirational to me. I have a hard time moving forward whenever something bad happens to me, so remembering how people like you who been through worse are still moving, really helps me. I'm glad that I can be part of this community thats like family to you, even if we're not physically with you❤
sukunasslut
2021-07-27 15:27:58 +0000 UTCVery beautiful and remember that those that have the roughest beginning have the most beautiful end because the rough part isn't who you are now❤❤
2021-07-27 15:05:40 +0000 UTCThis is beautiful and more than one line made me pause because for one reason or another, even if not for your specific meaning, I related to them. I'm not great at poetry or such no matter how much I love the topic, and I'm not sure if I'll dabble in it, but I really enjoyed this, in a kind of 'letting it go' sort of distant sense. . ? I hope it brought you a sense of relief to write it out and post it. Things like this are easier said than done to do, and I'm happy you felt safe enough to share with everyone here! Thank you. =^^= I really hope you're feeling better, and no pushing your voice, alright? And to everyone else, please have an amazing day, too!
Yep Yep
2021-07-27 14:47:07 +0000 UTCthank you for sharing this ❤️❤️ you are so amazing! Thank you for all you do for us!
~emotional support demon~
2021-07-27 14:43:45 +0000 UTCThis is beautiful. Don't be scared to express your feelings through art. I can't imagine what you or anyone who went through a similar situation went through. I hope you all know you're loved by me and everyone in this community. YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL. ALL OF YOU! ❤❤❤
☆•RedRiot•☆
2021-07-27 14:37:07 +0000 UTCThey say art often reviews a bit of the artist this poem expresses deep pain and raw emotions
ninjakitty118
2021-07-27 14:29:16 +0000 UTCGood morning and that was amazing Cece I enjoyed reading it💯💯❤️👌🏾.
❤️KKBunny❤️
2021-07-27 14:06:59 +0000 UTCIt’s a wonderful thing that you’re expressing yourself, even the darker things that haunt us. I truly believe it helps you heal! So I’m very proud of you for that ♡
Liz
2021-07-27 13:56:21 +0000 UTCwho are you?
Michell Moon
2021-07-27 13:03:09 +0000 UTCI feel the pan and your heart through these words they hurt but are still beautiful. Become they srd yours. Good Morning. And please remember that even though the sky may be gray, a smile smile can always brighten it.
Mai Nara
2021-07-27 12:57:44 +0000 UTCI love it. You should post more poems. 🤗
ShazzaSG
2021-07-27 12:33:45 +0000 UTCIts very special and intimate
Deadly bunny
2021-07-27 12:17:42 +0000 UTCThank you so much for sharing this and sharing so much of yourself with us. This was very well written. It describes layer upon layer of a deep and complex pain, possibly for years, that I could not even imagine enduring. I hope sharing this does alleviate your spirit, you do so much to bring us up from feeling low. Don’t worry about the audio, healing takes priority. Thank you again and I hope you feel better soon.
pomecello
2021-07-27 11:50:17 +0000 UTCIt's good to get these emotions out of you it doesn't cosume you we will do what we can to help and support ♥️⚙️
切島の小石
2021-07-27 11:06:09 +0000 UTCI love the poem. It's so expressive and the word choices just invoke so much feeling when reading it. The poem is powerful. It's poems like these that are worth reading again because it not only instill imagery but the connections that can be made by anyone who reads, whether life had been kind to them or not, ties into the writer. There is nothing wrong with dark themed poems or work. There is beauty we see in the dark. It is a more provoking side of emotions we feel and sometimes ones we don't want to feel. Writing is one way that helps a lot with the cathartic release of it. I'm glad to have read the poem and hope you feel just a bit lighter. Good night and hope you have a wonderful day when you wake up. 💜💙💚
Gogglesしょじょ
2021-07-27 10:44:54 +0000 UTCSo raw and yet beautiful i hope u feel better cece
Arelis
2021-07-27 09:46:51 +0000 UTCThis was hauntingly beautiful, Cece ♥ No need to be nervous sharing!! I can't say I know exactly what you've been through, but through this poem I can *feel* it. Thank you for letting yourself be so personal with us. We love you!!
SpookieBoo
2021-07-27 09:40:21 +0000 UTC"Holding tight, so tight, my skin turns blue." "I'll burn my lips, so the pain can be free" That speaks personally to me. Thank you for sharing <3
Brixton Fawkes
2021-07-27 09:22:15 +0000 UTCCece, I just want to say thank you so much for everything you do to cheer me and everyone else up. Sharing yourself with the community really means a lot. You're so special don't ever forget that.
RavenMoon
2021-07-27 08:57:57 +0000 UTCI love ur Username! I'm a huge fan Hazbin Hotel! Especially... Alastor 😋
Nayruanime
2021-07-27 08:52:25 +0000 UTCIt's haunting, but lovely. I'm glad you felt comfortable to share such a big story with ur not just ur audience, but I think some of us have come to feel like ur friend(s). I too have had trauma, in fact very recent (just this past year). I had a miscarriage of my twins on Nov... My grandmother passed away from covid in December and my only family member whom inspired me, my grandfather followed close behind by losing to stage 4 cancer this January. I've been getting night terrors and those who don't quite know what they are, are different from nightmares. You wake in a frantic panic attack screaming from from whatever you had dreamt about... shaking and unable to catch ur bearing for a while. It's was during February that I had discovered ASMRs on YouTube originally and once I knew what Patreon was and the extra audios I could hear, I subscribed to 2-3 of my favorite artists (you being one of them lol). Your content... Has helped me and I know many others not only through rough moments that are a part of life, bit also bring at least me, a sense of love and comfort that currently is not available for me. So I want to thank you for not only sharing such raw emotion made beautiful with us... But thank YOU Yagami for being a voice of comfort of many levels for me personally. ☺️ Sorry if this seemed weird or sappy... But I felt I needed to share my appreciation and why your work means the world to some people.
Nayruanime
2021-07-27 08:50:46 +0000 UTCSweet dreams <3
Ivy
2021-07-27 08:49:01 +0000 UTCNothing wrong with writing dark themed poems! My outlet is writing dark themed stories! Don't be afraid to share your outlets with people 😊
Gail Redfern
2021-07-27 08:46:01 +0000 UTCso many strong lines in this poem !! you truly made something beautiful out of the pain you've felt, and we are so glad that you are doing better now. thank you so much for sharing this, love your work!
2021-07-27 08:29:00 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing the poem, full of raw emotion and pain. It makes me inspired to do something myself. I appreciate you sharing this with us. Please take care of your voice and heart. I am sending all my hugs and good vibes 🤗
Yvoart
2021-07-27 08:24:17 +0000 UTCthis was beautiful in a little dark way 🖤 does it have a name? this line rly got to me ;; 'snapping innocent wings that try to fly flapping and trying despite how high' owch 😿 it makes me thing of so many things thank you for sharing with us (:
Faye
2021-07-27 08:20:36 +0000 UTCBeautifully dark and creative! 💕 I'm especially happy that you're doing better now too. Sharing something so personal- how brave of you! Thank you for sharing with us ❤
FluffyHazbin
2021-07-27 08:19:58 +0000 UTCIt's so dark and beautiful 😍😍😍 reminds me a lot of the dark poems of Lorca 💕
Littlestalker
2021-07-27 08:13:54 +0000 UTCPulling your feelings into words is so brave and strong to do, especially for yourself. I'm so happy with getting to know you a little more, as you have changed my life in so many ways (all good I promise). You always find a way to help me keep my heart and mind open, and provide comfort when the world goes a little gray. Thank you so much, Cece ❤️💕❤️.
Liddomissellie
2021-07-27 08:12:16 +0000 UTCYour poem is absolutely beautiful!! 🤍🤍🤍
2021-07-27 08:11:25 +0000 UTCSo beautiful and so strong thank for sharing🤍🌌you are so strong and inspiring🌌🤍love you unconditionally 🥰🤍✨
Illiana Cantu
2021-07-27 08:05:40 +0000 UTCthank you so much for sharing this <33 i hope you feel better, despite the worries, for getting it off your chest. i hope you drank your water, ate some yummy things, and smiled today. we love you cece!! and your poem was beautiful, even with the dark sense of it your words shined. goodnight bb! and to anyone else reading this maybe hehe i love you 🥰 sweet dreams
2021-07-27 08:04:46 +0000 UTCWriting is such a healthy coping mechanism no matter how dark or horrible the words are that fall on the paper! It always weighs just a little bit less after a purge like that. Thank you so much for sharing and trusting us here. If you ever wanna swap deep dark poems, stories and writings let me know I got an endless well into the shadow workings. Have a restful and healing night.
Jennifer Delcore
2021-07-27 08:04:40 +0000 UTCVery well done! 😁
Rio Yang
2021-07-27 08:02:47 +0000 UTCBeautiful and creative! Thank you for sharing it pains. I hope nothing but light is now in ur path. Don’t be nervous, no judgment here, this is a free space for u. U deserve it❤️❤️
Mangos
2021-07-27 08:02:42 +0000 UTCI honestly wish I, or at least we your supporters, can be a comfort to you even if it's just a fraction of how you are to us, Cece.
MerC
2021-07-27 08:02:33 +0000 UTCThe emotions you managed to twist into words was nothing short of beautiful. Cece, this was amazing! Thank you for sharing it with us 💜
2021-07-27 08:01:11 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing this with us and I’m glad you’ve been able to overcome all the bad and dark things from your past enough to let yourself be happy 🙏🏼❤️ we all appreciate you and everything you do for us 💕❤️
OmaOti
2021-07-27 08:00:36 +0000 UTCPoems are beautiful, because, they let the emotions out, but still maintain a bit of privacy through using symbols. And the reader can then interpret them personally, and have things to ponder and be moved in their own way. Your art is always very moving. Love you🧡 ~hugs~
Jennifer Love
2021-07-27 08:00:33 +0000 UTC“My empty eyes that look toward hope” I love that line
Aris
2021-07-27 08:00:04 +0000 UTCCece! I could definitely feel your pain through this poem, so thank you so much for sharing this with us. It is beautifully written though! You’re so brave Cece and I’m so proud of you ❤️
vang00gh
2021-07-27 07:59:31 +0000 UTCJ'adore, j'adore, j'adore, j'adore.
MerC
2021-07-27 07:59:30 +0000 UTCI love it! It was raw and honest and beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing it Cece. ❤️
Neko
2021-07-27 07:59:00 +0000 UTCI’m honestly loving that you’re comfortable with opening up to your supporters! I really appreciate that you are! Beautiful and touching poem! 💖
Fallen_Queen
2021-07-27 07:57:30 +0000 UTCYou’re incredible and this was such a lovely and personal and moving read. Keep your head high and remember we love you when things get hard!
DoctorWhoCdc
2021-07-27 07:55:03 +0000 UTC👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
Common Ghoul
2021-07-27 07:54:48 +0000 UTC
