Anxiety and Depression
Added 2022-03-16 21:26:49 +0000 UTCHello everyone. As I shared with you all, I started some new medication to me for my anxiety and depression. My anxiety medication is a take as needed basis, however it completely knocks me out (can't have anxiety if you are constantly asleep)
I have to wait for 8 weeks so I can have a report to bring back to my doctor regarding side effects and how I'm feeling mentally. Some days are really good while others are super low. I randomly get motivation at 3 in the morning to do things (gym, make up, tik tok, wrestling etc) but then when I finally crash I'm sleeping till 2 or 4 in the afternoon and my whole day is shot and I feel bad that I just slept. My hair hasn't been brushed in 3 days (I brushed it today) and I haven't had the motivation to go to the gym because my anxiety hasn't let me leave the house but instead wanted to compare my body to others. (Thanks brain) the daily struggle is real yall.
*EDIT*
I was also told by my doctor that she believes I have an underlying bipolar disorder which was very hard for me to hear. Its hard for me to accept as I was with someone for 10 years (now am ex) who would always say I was crazy/psycho and that I was bipolar and no one would want to deal with me. (Lots of emotional and mentak abuse in that oast relationship) So that past trauma resurfaced when my doctor brought up that diagnoses and it jsut made me feel a type of way.
I live in hoodies and sweat pants now a days haha. If you have any favorite brands to your favorite hoodies and sweats let ya zombae know because I love em!
On a side note, I had a blast at Fanfest for Revolution weekend. Being in a cage was so fun and theatrical and ALSO helped calm my anxiety with so many people. Meeting you all was wonderful, you guys were so sweet and kind. Some of you told me I was your favorite wrestler and it was hard to not break character and tell you how much that means to me. Thank you for your continued support and love for Abadon. We try very hard to being terror and smiles and representation to those who need it most.
I will be better soon. I assume this is apart of the mental health journey I'm on. The highs, the lows, and doing my best to power through for all of you wonderful people.
New content will he posted before the end of the month.
Comments
This post hits close to home. I finally decided after years of just dealing & living w/ my bouts of depression to see a reputable Dr. I started meds in February & I’m slowly seeing a change for the better. And therapy is helping to change my mindset. I’m enjoying things again! My anxieties are still there but I’m managing them day to day. Trying not to let them run my life completely🤞 Thank you Abadon for bringing me & everyone around the world something to enjoy. You’re so creative!
Jay Rogers
2022-05-04 10:05:03 +0000 UTCWe love you, you got this! Can't go wrong with Wicked Clothes for sweats
Carlos Littles
2022-03-17 21:05:43 +0000 UTCFeel ya kid. We’re all here for you. The comfiest hoodies I’ve gotten is from pizzaposse.com the pizza king shirt is designed by sawblade the person who does all the death metal art.
Hauntlink
2022-03-17 18:29:24 +0000 UTCHang in there, Zombae.
Mike Leiderman
2022-03-17 15:48:30 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing, I hope that helped a little. Just know you're not alone in this. So many of us are fighting every day, it helps me to know that even someone I admire as much as I admire you struggles just like I do. The only encouragement I know to give you is to just keep fighting, you are a strong person! You are loved by many, and you're NEVER alone! :)
Dojo Casino
2022-03-17 14:25:35 +0000 UTCDefinitely understand the anxiety part, when I go to the gym, my mind tells me not to because I have to do this or that, or something might happen if I go. Stay strong Zombae!
Daniel McCarthy
2022-03-17 06:29:44 +0000 UTCThank you and well done for speaking out. I have bipolar and medicate daily. Just wanted to say thank you for being you. You bring joy, terror and everything in between to many. You got this
Stuart Panton
2022-03-16 23:52:39 +0000 UTCThanks for sharing. Mental health isn't spoken about enough and is something that has a lot of negative stigma attached to it. As someone who also suffers from anxiety and depression it's good to feel your not alone in it. It's as important, if not more, as physical health. You're doing great and these things take time. Take It easy and know you've got a lot of love and support from people.
Tyson Graham
2022-03-16 23:17:19 +0000 UTCThanks for posting this. We’ve all got your back, even in the trenches. Wishing you all the best and sending lots of love your way 💙💙💙💙💙
Michael Soriano
2022-03-16 22:55:29 +0000 UTCTake your time. Recently I've been in a mental/emotional funk and have gone back to listening to Soulfly. Their music always helped me get my head back into a "normal" (for me) place.
Chris Swinford
2022-03-16 22:40:40 +0000 UTCi’m proud of you. much love and energy
John P Morrison
2022-03-16 22:04:29 +0000 UTCHello just wanted to let you know you're not alone with dealing with depression. It sucks but keep positive people around you helps alot god bless you
Larr Remarkable
2022-03-16 21:42:59 +0000 UTCJust keep your fans posted on what's going on and whatever is going just know the abadon fan base will always be with you to cheer you especially this #1 fan.
Adam Mapes
2022-03-16 21:42:14 +0000 UTCmy last 2 weeks have been the same way. new meds, no motivation and weird sleeping times. told i should level out in the next week or so. but it is frustrating as all get out. it is always nice to know others are going through the same thing. just want to encourage you ma’am and thanks.
JP
2022-03-16 21:41:26 +0000 UTCAh! That breaks my heart! Hopefully we can meet soon! Thank you for your kind words! Abadon is very important to me, like an extension of my personality so I take very good care of them. I think with everything going on I feel like everyone is feeling a type of way. The world is wild right now and I don't think it's helping a lot of people. Being able to share these things with you all on this platform is comforting, because it's nice knowing I'm not alone and I hope you all know the same.
Abadon
2022-03-16 21:40:46 +0000 UTCI've been on anxiety medication for the past 2 years and it definitely hits the bump in the road of being tired all the time. Combine that with having ADHD, my body doesn't know if it's tired or if it's wired. But I always support you and your mental health journey. I know that's important especially as performer in wrestling and one just as yourself, Zombae.
Bryan M. Davis
2022-03-16 21:40:31 +0000 UTCFeeling for you, Abadon. I just recently started cycling off wellbutrin because, while it was really good at curbing my anxiety, it made me numb to almost all other things (can't be anxious if you don't feel at all). It's a struggle, but I think you're on the right path if you're trying. Sometimes we don't even get that far. Just please know you have random fans from all over that just want the absolute best for you, however that manifests itself 🖤🖤🖤.
Aj
2022-03-16 21:37:29 +0000 UTCI didn't get to meet you at the fan fest, I was 4th or 5th in line when they cut it off but you are my favorite. I love your commitment to preserving the integrity of the Abadon character as an old school wrestling fan. As for the rest, I get it. I've been feeling it lately (and by lately I mean my whole life). I know generic words of encouragement are only so effective but I appreciate what you put out to the world. For whatever it's worth, I'm in your corner.
Benjamin Nichols
2022-03-16 21:34:24 +0000 UTCI'm about a year and a half into my anxiety/depression and being on medication. It took a bit of time being on the medication for me to start noticing I was able to make it through some situations without realizing I did. And also took some time to get to the right dosage that I needed. It took about four months to completely kick the drowsiness that occurred when I took it as well. So with a little bit of time, things should hopefully get back to some sort of new "normal" for you! I still have some rough days where I struggle, but things are better. Keep with it and things will begin to trend upward!
Mike Shoemaker
2022-03-16 21:32:56 +0000 UTCIf only they could find a way to keep the ups and nix the downs, we'd be unstoppable
Joe White
2022-03-16 21:31:40 +0000 UTCI have bipolar, ptsd and major anxiety. I’ve been medicated for it and a medication Guinea pig since I was 16. 10 years of them messing with my meds trying to see what “works”. I guess I’m just letting you know, you’re not alone. I hope to meet you one day
KatSuicide
2022-03-16 21:31:29 +0000 UTCYeah, I was recently told that they believe I have an underlying bipolar disorder so we are trying to work through that.
Abadon
2022-03-16 21:30:21 +0000 UTCReminds me of my bipolar disorder. You got this. You are strong enough and you are loved.
Joe White
2022-03-16 21:29:43 +0000 UTCThe meds will kick in, and you’re gonna be Full Blown Chaos
Nick At Night
2022-03-16 21:29:39 +0000 UTCThank you so much!
Abadon
2022-03-16 21:28:54 +0000 UTCYou’re my favorite wrestler. MOAR ZOMBAE MATCHES!!!!
Nick At Night
2022-03-16 21:28:36 +0000 UTC
