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Added 2021-07-30 00:19:34 +0000 UTCI present Kaneki from Tokyo Ghoul. I wanted this imagery to represent the emptiness that, not only Kaneki feels but what I also feel. I wanted the sensation of doubt, one track minded yet cluttered with brain fog. I wanted harsh and intense contrast on these to mimic the intensity of these emotions that both myself and Kaneki go through.
Our place in location was my bedroom. Sometimes I have a hard time leaving those walls. My depression and anxiety get so bad at times I stay in bed. I may leave to go to the gym or work, sometimes my friends have dragged me from my room and every so often I have gotten the courage to face the day. I wanted these images to feel raw and personal, to show how sometimes being trapped in your head is being in solitary confinement. I know Kaneki's is a LOT different considering the Ghoul and trying not to eat people. Even on days where I may have confidence, where I feel sexy, where I feel great that this is what's waiting for me inside of my head when that wave has run it's course.
I have plenty more projects coming up and two of them are related to Resident Evil Village. I'm sure you guys can guess where I'm going with those!
"You think something like that would hurt, after all I've been through?"
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I started watching the first few episodes of Tokyo Ghoul a few weeks ago, I definitely need to start watching again. It’s crazy how life imitates art. I suffer from depression for most of my adult life, and the crazy part is I never knew I was depressed. Appreciate how open you are with us.
Daniel McCarthy
2021-07-30 07:09:34 +0000 UTCI appreciate your comment a lot! Sometimes shoots are just fun and spontaneous, while others are a little more serious. Thank you for appreciating both forms of art that I currently do. It means a lot.
Abadon
2021-07-30 00:43:07 +0000 UTCI am absolutely amazed at the amount of thought you put into these shoots, even one as simple as a bedroom shoot. You're not doing this for clout, you're actually doing something that has meaning to you. I dig that so much. I didn't know what sort of rabbit hole I was going to fall into when I decided to become a patron as I just knew you as the badass zombie wrestler that intrigued the shit out of me every time she crawled to the ring to destroy someone. It's not just cosplay for the sake of likes and shares. It's deep and personal for you and I appreciate you sharing that vulnerability and talent with us. You are amazing and I'm a fan for life!
Josh Howard
2021-07-30 00:38:08 +0000 UTCThats okay, there are going to be characters people don't know about! I'm surprised I've kept it going too! Haha, usually my anxiety and depression get to me and I would normally give up but, something about having wrestling and cosplay as my life makes me feel differently. RE Village will be a lot of fun and I cannot wait!
Abadon
2021-07-30 00:33:56 +0000 UTCSo I got to be honest and say I didn’t know who Kaneki was so I googled it bc I definitely want to know more! I always say it and I always mean it. Thank you for always sharing an inside to the person behind the makeup and sharing these amazing photo shoots with us. Hard to believe your Patreon has been going on for almost a year!!! I so can’t wait to see you do RE Village ❤️
Stephen Vandelli
2021-07-30 00:30:57 +0000 UTCThank you so much!
Abadon
2021-07-30 00:25:37 +0000 UTCThis is incredible
Chris Codina
2021-07-30 00:24:40 +0000 UTC
