Fitness Journey
Added 2021-01-05 17:40:25 +0000 UTCLast year, I had started a fitness journey for myself. Slowly it started to shift, especially after I had my first ever Dark Match. I started seeing all these comments, all these awful things. (You would think being a cosplayer I would be used to it) but it got worse as time went on. I stopped working out especially when quarantine hit. I fell into a state of depression and felt like I needed to constantly defend myself against these people who get off to being hateful and hurtful. The motivation to better myself was gone. Depression and the nasty people had won.
Then, in May I started to slowly pick back up into the fitness world. Knowing I wanted to better myself for wrestling. I told myself I wouldn't let or allow other people's tasteless words affect me. (That mindset lasted maybe two weeks) It's amazing what words can do to our minds and our mental state. I lost about 20 pounds (some of the weight came back in muscle) I was feeling pretty good because my gear was fitting differently and so was my every day clothing. (Keep in mind I did crossfit for two years and still always had a little bit extra that I couldn't seem to get rid of no matter how committed I was to it) and people STILL had things to say even though they hadn't seen me since March. So I'd say at that time I'd lost about 15 pounds and put 5 back on in muscle.
I'm always trying to stay as body positive as I can, even though my self hatred was out of control all of last year. I'm happy to say in the last 5 days I haven't been negative towards myself. I did say 2 things accidently (since it's a habit to berate myself) I quickly apologized and sincerely meant it.
Any who, I've decided to share my fitness journey with you guys. This is a safe space here and I want everyone to feel secure and loved by everyone. All of us should be in this together, and when I say "In this" I mean life. Let's make sure we are living it to the fullest that we can. I wanted to share my progress with you starting with pictures I took this morning. I'm still 15 down but instead of worrying about the scale and how much I've lost, I decided this round to just enjoy my workouts and treat them as celebrations and not punishments for what I've eaten or how I feel. I want to celebrate being able to Deadlift 220 pounds and squatting 120 (front squats are hard lol) Lets turn this year into celebrations, positivity, and accomplishments. Food for the mind, body and soul.
Thank you for reading <3
Comments
Look great as always miss zombae keep up the hard work you got this! 🧟♀️🖤
Melanie
2021-01-08 07:10:33 +0000 UTCHell yeah Miss Zombae looking awesome! Thank you for sharing your fitness journey with us. I struggle with staying disciplined when trying to better myself when it comes to working out and eating right, and your post has been really inspiring, so thank you for that too
Rob Vogel
2021-01-06 05:35:35 +0000 UTCI think you are killing it. I also think it’s inspirational that you have found the drive for what you want. I know the internet can be dark spot.
Chris Jung
2021-01-05 23:46:08 +0000 UTCIts unfortunate that the more exposure people get, the more negativity there is. So many lack the willingness to deal with their own personal struggles constructively, and, instead, choose to project their misery onto others. Words DO hurt. Especially if you see enough of them. The human spirit can take so much. I'm glad you try to focus more on the positive. If you seek it, you will receive it. Also, never be afraid to put down the phone. Theres no shame in it. That said, we got you if you ever need a boost in confidence. In my opinion, your body is perfect. Then again, i have a thing for that type. That said, it never hurts to improve, and LOVE how you choose to focus on how much you can squat, etc. Makes it much more fun when you can break your own record. Kinda like video games. Haha Keep being you, and make like Cody and #DoTheWork. ❤
Marcus McCurdy
2021-01-05 21:14:10 +0000 UTCYou look fantastic, it’s awesome watching your journey. Remember to stay positive, and when people throw negativity at you, just take a deep breath and push on, you’re doing what they wish they could do.
Daniel McCarthy
2021-01-05 19:41:53 +0000 UTCYou got this! Keep doing you!
Sean Brooks
2021-01-05 18:29:13 +0000 UTCI think you have always looked amazing. But what matters most. Is your happiness. Because you rock. In and out of that squared circle.
Gary Carper
2021-01-05 18:15:14 +0000 UTCYou truly look amazing, and I'm glad you're trying to work out to further personal goals and be better in the ring rather than appease those assholes who snipe about your looks. You already look great and those people are going to be there no matter what your body looks like. I'd rather you focus on doing better for you and try to ignore the haters. I know it's hard but we're all behind you.
Owen Stupka
2021-01-05 18:09:00 +0000 UTCYou truly are an inspiration. I so appreciate your honesty with us. I really felt your heart in those words and I want to let you know it’s an inspiration to me to get my ass back going again! I was doing DDP Yoga and trying to get more in shape then boom Pandemic. I started to stress eat etc. Now I need to get back in gear but It was hard finding that spark. If I’m being honest your post just became that spark. Also I truly mean this when I say you’re an absolutely gorgeous person. I know there are a lot of people who are way too blind to see that or need to see you face. Honestly there’s many zombies like myself who don’t judge a book by its cover. I personally believe a face/mask is that cover and the body is the rest of the book. If you get what I mean? 🤷 Anyway sorry for the rant but you truly did inspire me today with this post 🧟♀️🧠🤘
Stephen Vandelli
2021-01-05 17:59:18 +0000 UTCHating is a hell of a drug in the internet wrestling community. Mostly cause that's all they can do since they cannot do what you can do in the ring. It is hard, but you gotta keep going strong and keep focused on your goals. Just remember, there are more supporters out there and those who hate will go away just by your actions.
Atom Ant D
2021-01-05 17:55:44 +0000 UTCFantastic job! Keep going strong! 🖤💪
Nathaniel A. Oliver
2021-01-05 17:41:53 +0000 UTC
