Health update
Added 2025-02-13 11:44:15 +0000 UTCSome of my tests are ready.
I just can’t seem to wrap my head around everything after yet another visit to the cardiology department… My test results came back, and it turned out to be worse than I had hoped, which really upset me.
Quoting the doctor: “Let’s not assume that everything is fine and perfect—your results show severe inflammation in your heart.” I asked if that’s why my heart hurts so much and why I get these strong episodes of pain, and she said, “Of course.”
When I asked if I could fly on airplanes, she said she couldn’t give me a definitive answer but advised me to avoid it if possible.
Of course, they ordered a whole bunch of new tests, scans, and everything else. At this point, I feel like it would be easier (and cheaper) to just open my own damn hospital. 🙈
I asked what the worst-case scenario could be, and she said, “What already happened—a recurrent tamponade.”
On the bright side, I showed my doctor the data from my Oura ring, and she said it was incredibly useful. Thanks to it, she was able to confirm that I have tachycardia and asked me to bring a summary of my ring’s data in two months. So I’ll never stop thanking my friend for such a valuable gift.
Long story short, I went to the hospital in a good mood, singing along to music in the car, and now, looking at all this, I just feel like giving up.
I’m just so tired… and honestly, it feels like more than anything, I’m tired of life itself and of constantly fighting.
I just want to live a bright, fulfilling life without constant hospital visits, without being limited by physical pain. I want to go back to Iceland, I want to hike in the mountains again, like I used to. I want to do sports, I want to create something beautiful—I want to capture what my soul is aching to show the world. I want to make life better and kinder for the people and animals around me. I want to spend my life on something meaningful, not on the endless sight of hospital corridors.
As I write this, there is an uncontrollable scream inside me, calling out to the universe, begging for all of this to finally end.
Comments
What can you say to that except cry. It makes me so sad to see you undergo all this trauma but try and dig deep and try and find the resilience to continue. I think I had better shut my mouth now for fear of saying the wrong thing.
Barry Andrew
2025-03-07 07:28:17 +0000 UTCLove you dear. I'm so sorry. I don't know what to tell you, but live while you're alive. No one knows what will happen, not even doctors.
The Edge of Ugly
2025-02-18 01:16:11 +0000 UTCMuch love to you Anastasia. Keep going. May you receive everything you need, in care and providence.
Matt
2025-02-16 14:58:47 +0000 UTCSo probably it's good that I can stand by you and financially support you at this hard period of your lifetime. I wonder if I can do more for you. As a volunteer, I support many Ukrainian refugees in my town.
Mikhail Miljach
2025-02-15 23:08:50 +0000 UTC♥️🫂
Anastasia Mihaylova
2025-02-15 13:38:33 +0000 UTCThank you so much for your support!!!♥️
Anastasia Mihaylova
2025-02-15 13:38:29 +0000 UTCThank you 🙏🏻♥️
Anastasia Mihaylova
2025-02-15 13:38:15 +0000 UTCThanks a ton 🙏🏻♥️
Anastasia Mihaylova
2025-02-15 13:38:07 +0000 UTCMichael, thank you so much! 🥹♥️ Sometimes I feel myself so weak, but you all makes me believe that it’s not about me, despite my sometime’s tears 🙈😅🥹
Anastasia Mihaylova
2025-02-15 13:37:57 +0000 UTCKeep strong ,you got this 🫂
Craggy1958
2025-02-13 15:26:25 +0000 UTCMy prayers for your recovery!!!🙏
natureman
2025-02-13 14:09:54 +0000 UTCSo sorry to see this and I do understand how you feel. Keep going. You will beat this and enjoy those things again.
Gordon Brodie
2025-02-13 12:39:35 +0000 UTC🫂
Mark Anthony
2025-02-13 12:29:36 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing. 🫂🫂🫂My heart breaks for you. You are the best and kindest person I know. I keep sending you my daily prayers and healing vibes. I want you to be better through my sheer willpower.🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏
Jeff Van Niel
2025-02-13 12:17:58 +0000 UTCI can’t fully relate to what you’re going through, but am amazed and impressed with your approach to dealing with it. ❤️
Michael
2025-02-13 11:52:10 +0000 UTC
