veryfilthything

Pausing Payments For a Month

Added 2025-02-10 00:47:56 +0000 UTC

TLDR: Pausing payments for a month again to reevaluate my mental state so I can do my best work.

I really didn't wanna do this again, especially not so soon, but I need to be mature and come clean with my inability to draw lately. For over a week, I've struggled to make anything that I was happy with. Trying to get myself to draw in the first place is a massive chore. Its become a source of immense stress for me and I have to be transparent about that. This isn't how i wanna be working, and I'm not making good work this way anyways.

Why is this the case? I don't know exactly, but the huge amount of stress and guilt its causing me is eating me away to the point I can barely even get out of bed and talk to people.

I need to stop and reevaluate myself and my relationship with art right now. I want to draw, I want to improve, but I need to be doing it from a healthier mindset. I don't want to just ignore this problem. I want to tackle it and really figure it out. I need to stop having this issue and mature as a working artist.

So to that end, I'm pausing for the month to give myself the time to actually address this properly. Yes, I realize this is unprofessional, but I have to be honest about it. If people feel like I'm not worth supporting, I understand. I need to be doing better both for myself and for others.

I WILL figure this out this time. I have to. I deeply appreciate the love and compassion shown to me as I struggle to overcome this problem. Thank you.

~Fila