Break Update!
Added 2024-06-26 14:23:21 +0000 UTCHello, all patrons!
It's been a while since you've last heard from me, and I hope you've all been having a wonderful month!
Unfortunately, I can't say the same thing for myself despite my intention of it being a creative break. I initially wanted to focus on streaming and venture more into that space to see what it felt like with audios on the backburner. Personally, it's been a great addition and nice change of pace. Instead—and I won't go into too much detail—this month has probably been one of the worst months I've experienced in a very long time. Every day has been a struggle for me, and it doesn't seem to be getting better.
Before, I felt I was burning out, though in what sense I wasn't sure. Even now, I can't quite pinpoint it, but it's likely an amalgamation of reasons. I thought that taking a break from work would help ease the stress, but I feel worse than I did before the break started.
And I have no idea why. Happiness doesn't come to me. Excitement and vigour doesn't come to me. Not even sadness. The only thing that's kept me relatively sane and has given me a morsel of motivation to get out of bed is reworking my novel.
So, with that said, it's highly likely that I'll be taking off July as well and pausing another payment. I cannot return to making any kind of content for all of you in my current state. The audios will be shit, streams will be drab; the community doesn't deserve it, and I won't subject you to any of that. I can't promise anything, and I won't until I know I can uphold them.
I don't know exactly what I need to fix the way I've been feeling, but I'll continue to search for it. All I ask is for your patience while I figure this out.
Thank you all for sticking by me, and I hope you take care of yourselves~
Love, Saku.
Comments
sorry to hear how it's been going for you recently :c absolutely take more time for yourself if you feel that'll be of benefit. your well-being is most important and, if anything, i'm glad you're not prepared to throw yourself back into working when you're not ready to. i really hope you can enjoy focusing on your novel further, and maybe even find other small joys and motivation to sprinkle some light throughout this time. however long you need, we'll be right here. we're not going anywhere. if it helps, take each day slowly and as it comes, and know what you're currently experiencing will pass; even if it takes longer than usual. we're right behind you ! wishing the utmost best for you saku 🤍🌠
lois
2024-06-28 01:39:46 +0000 UTCThere are probably no words that’ll give you proper comfort but I truly hope from the bottom of my heart that things will get a little easier for you 😭💛
sepia
2024-06-27 17:06:26 +0000 UTCSaku, I am so sorry to hear that taking june of hasn't helped you and that you feel worse. Please don't take my comment the wrong way, what I want to tell you, I do with good intentions from the bottom of my heart. Only in the hopes that it might be of some help to you. You are such a nice, creative and inspiring human being and you deserve to feel happy! What you are describing does sound a bit like symptoms of a burnout. I sort of recognise it, because I am recovering from one myself. The moment I called in sick from work and started to rest, I was drained of emotions and felt exhausted from everything. I lay in bed for most of the time. The lack of motivation to get out of bed, is a sign that you have been working to hard for a long time and haven't given yourself time to recharge. I know it must be frustrating, but rest as much as you can and give yourself time to recharge your energy. When you feel ready for it, maybe talking with a professional about what you are feeling and going through might help. It did for me, but everyone has different needs off course. I hope you can find something that will help you feel better, but for now take all the time you need to get better. We, your Crumpets won't go anywhere. You always have our full support! Sending you a virtual hug and all the best wishes!
Miss_Nicky31
2024-06-27 12:18:09 +0000 UTCI have been waiting for an update from you hearing those news were harsh:(, please take care of yourself Saku and take it slowly, don’t pressure yourself!
• AOI •
2024-06-27 02:43:19 +0000 UTCAlso, have u guys notice how Saku hasn’t changed his Profile pic for Twitter? *signs* good times😌 Brings back memories. Hope that helps with how u feel rn Saku😊🧡
easterbunny
2024-06-26 22:13:05 +0000 UTCI don't mind paying for access to the content that's already here. Maybe consider visiting a therapist? Take care and wish you all the best!
mahamatata
2024-06-26 22:03:20 +0000 UTCTake your time!! <3
Ek__
2024-06-26 19:12:13 +0000 UTCIt's ok Saku we all understand, take all the time you need to rest and recover.
Chris
2024-06-26 18:28:24 +0000 UTCWe fully understand Saku
JAY
2024-06-26 16:43:09 +0000 UTCTake your time! You deserve to rest and find what makes you happy to get up everyday and keep going xx
Evanora
2024-06-26 16:19:28 +0000 UTCIt’s ok Saku. Take ur time. 🧡 See ya ✌️
easterbunny
2024-06-26 15:47:06 +0000 UTCI know exactly how that feels, it's terrible. I'm sure you'll get over it over time, don't rush.🙏
Orchidontis
2024-06-26 15:14:48 +0000 UTCGet some rest Saku, I hope your Novel gives you some much needed happiness! Burn out sucks but it happens, especially with the state of things lately. Take care of yourself!
Ponyboy
2024-06-26 15:08:35 +0000 UTCTake all the time you need Saku! Your crumpets will await your return, just focus on yourself, your health (in all aspects) are what’s most important. 💙
Stephanie Rose
2024-06-26 15:07:44 +0000 UTCTake all the time you need man🤍 We'll be here, we're not going anywhere :)
whoisvenus
2024-06-26 15:03:06 +0000 UTCas much as we all love and value your hard work, prioritize your mental health and take care of yourself! <3
#potato451
2024-06-26 14:56:58 +0000 UTCI hope you feel better! Maybe it's time to access your environment, I was in a very tough spot a couple of months ago bc of my old job and life in general. I took a step back and realized that the reason why I was suffering so much was because I was afraid to change what was happening because I found comfort in the chaos. I found a better job, now I'm recently single and I am healthier, happier and have been taking time to enjoy life. I've been taking my brother and son on walks and to the park, going out with friends, working out as well, and it's been feeling so refreshing. I feel like for once in my life I've been able to breathe and take my time. Sometimes it's not too late to do something and find what we do really want, even if it is hard to figure that out because we don't know what it may be. Just remembering to put yourself first and not to overwhelm yourself. Take care!!! 🫶🫶
Just nick
2024-06-26 14:55:35 +0000 UTChey Saku! just from my own experiences with trying to get ahead of burnout before it fully sets in, that shit SUCKS. because you do everything you think you should and it still feels "wrong". i call it a creativity clog instead of a creativity drought, because you can still "feel" it there, but it just feels like there's "something" in the way that just won't move. another break might be what you need. it could be that the pressure from wanting to overcome the burnout is making you feel worse? but this is all speculation from my end. good luck Saku! again, this sucks to deal with, and it's a frustrating feeling for a lot of writers, artists, etc. to have to deal with. we're all rooting for you, though! 🫶🏾
Lilli
2024-06-26 14:38:55 +0000 UTCyou’re sounding a little bit too much like me. but on a serious note i urge you to seek help if you’re feeling like this, the last thing you want is for this feeling to fester. you’re not alone please remember that and take as much time as you need 🤍
aestheticpearl
2024-06-26 14:32:43 +0000 UTCThat's sad to hear, but do what feels right. Take care of yourself! We'll be waiting for you when you decide to come back ❤️
Ina
2024-06-26 14:28:47 +0000 UTCI am in a very similar place mentally. I understand the lack of feeling, the void, the defeat. That being said, I've been in this state a number of times. Sometimes a change of pace can be really helpful. Whatever you choose to do or not do, we'll still be here, just look after yourself, yeah?
Pragati Rana
2024-06-26 14:28:19 +0000 UTCI'm usually lurking here, but I do wanna tell you it gets better. Take care of yourself, Saku, and focus on your needs first and foremost! We'll be here, waiting with the utmost patience, so don't worry about that. Your wellbeing is more important than anything else 🤍
Linn
2024-06-26 14:28:13 +0000 UTCDear Saku, I'm certain I speak for all crumpets when I say that I'm glad you're putting your mental health first. I truly hope that you can find your passion soon, not for new content, but because I can't imagine going through such a tough time with the thing that sparks your interest not giving that same energy anymore and instead feeling tideous and tiring. I hope that the summer weather helps and inspires you and that you can work through struggles and find a method that works for you! We all are here for you and supporting you!!💚💚
liisa
2024-06-26 14:28:11 +0000 UTCYour health and well being come first so it’s good you’re taking time to yourself! I myself have been burnt out from writing and because my own mental health and such, so I understand! 🫰🏼
Lu-Dao
2024-06-26 14:27:04 +0000 UTCI'm so sorry your feeling this way 😔, taking time to ones self is important especially if for some reason you are struggling to connect with your own body and emotions. I pray and hope that within the month of July you will get better and begin to become health and more connected with yourself. Have another hopefully good break 😌 🙏
Immortal Wolf
2024-06-26 14:26:53 +0000 UTCTake all the time you need! 🤍
amanda
2024-06-26 14:26:29 +0000 UTCDon’t worry zsaku! Take the time you need to care for yourself! 💜 ps. Have you watched inside out 2??
soul’s potato
2024-06-26 14:25:02 +0000 UTC
