Future Content?
Added 2021-08-30 20:52:18 +0000 UTCHello, my beautiful crumpets. I hope you all had a great weekend!
As you may have already noticed, I didn't upload anything last week, and I apologise for not letting you know in advance. A lot of things have been happening at once and I feel like there are things I need to address.
I haven't been feeling great the past few weeks. In the beginning, it felt like my concentration was getting sucked from me, and I began to tire earlier and earlier as the days went by. Even when I gave myself a day off, I was awake only for a few hours before I felt the need to sleep again.
And then when I was notified of patrons uploading content elsewhere, that didn't help my health either. If anything, it contributed to its degradation and removed all motivation I had left.
I'm even finding it difficult to get out of bed every day, yet when I do, I can't concentrate on anything. Not my content, or my own personal writing and endeavours. Nothing. I'm wondering if it's time for me to take a break and sort out whatever it is that's affecting me, but even considering that makes me feel guilty because all of you are here for exclusive content, and you deserve at least that much.
Because of my absence and lack of anything, I want to sincerely apologise. I can't put it into words how sorry I am. I feel like I've disappointed you all. As a creator who values their craft, I always want to showcase my best work, but in my current state of mind, I can't bring myself to upload content I'm not proud of.
From here, I'm not really sure what I plan to do. I still have so many ideas for my YouTube and my Patreon and will definitely continue making content...I just don't know when. My activity will continue to dwindle, but I hope you all understand and are patient with me as I try to put myself back together.
Forever, with love,
Saku <3
Comments
I feel so bad to do this considering how you’re feeling but my financial situation changed with moving to a new job, so I had to unfortunately unsub for now :( . But once I start getting even more money with my much better job I will come back!!!! I hope you’re resting Saku 💜 Love you
rarainks
2021-09-06 07:59:41 +0000 UTCSomehow this didn't show up on my patreon until now, so here's my answer now: I have had two burnouts and I find it extremely important to put as much focus on pause and breaks from everything as we put on work. Saku I almost died because I didn't allow myself what you are considering now: A full and complete break, just some months of just you finding the joy and vision of your life. This is your life. You HAVE to stop now or I can guarantee you you will have a lot of trouble ever finding the strength for a "normal" schedule again! Prolonging the stressing out has severe effects on your whole body, especially the brain! You are not disappointing anyone, it is your DUTY to put your health first, because a) you only have this one body and b) thousands of people, especially young people, look up to you and they need to know that it is absolutely good to take longer breaks to re-evaluate everything. Most of them have the habit of skipping sleep already. Do this for you, AND for all the fans. This is the biggest gift you can give yourself and us: Stop RIGHT NOW and show the world that health and wellbeing is the most important thing! I love you, we love you, we are all in this together, and nothing can change this. Life is so amazing and wonderful when we're healthy and fit and excited for it! You can feel this too, BUT ONLY IF YOU STOP THE STRESS RIGHT NOW and please please please don't work for at least 3 months! <3 The fairytale project can totally wait, heck let's just say we maybe do it next year, or never if you don't want to. This is your chance to unfold into the best life! Forgive yourself completely for not working and applaud yourself for just being. Life is so grand without all this unnecessary guilt and shame! You're not our king because you write and record stuff! You're our king because you ARE, period. Now take a deep breath and just stare at the clouds.
Kiki
2021-09-01 09:13:49 +0000 UTCSaku, please take a break. You’re burnt out, and trying to push content will only worsen it. Take as much time as you need. Your health matters more. With a long break, things will get better. As a person who has been burnt out more than once, a break is what’ll help and what’s needed. Please please please take a long break to gather yourself, and to work on your health & motivation. Much love, feel better soon king ❤️❤️
idratherstaysilent
2021-08-31 22:33:37 +0000 UTCHealth and mental health is more important than anything. Take a break, as long as you need and don't worry about anything because you're not disappointing anyone
Evanjollyine
2021-08-31 07:00:19 +0000 UTCI know you have a dislike on sharing your burdens with others, so admitting to this must have taken a lot of courage. There's absolutely nothing to feel guilty about taking the time to care for yourself, and you have NEVER disappointed your fans. NEVER. Not then, and certainly not now. You have your limitations, and that's ok. You're only human, and I don't know if you know this, but we love you. Yes, your content is amazing, but many crumpets care and love YOU, so please look after yourself and take all the time you need to recover, Saku.
cuddlebunny
2021-08-31 03:38:45 +0000 UTCits okay, take a break please. take care of yourself
ginnie
2021-08-31 01:32:17 +0000 UTCit’s okay saku, you don’t need to pressure yourself to make content if you don’t feel like it, we will always understand you and always be here for you. Please put yourself and your mental health first, we love you 💙💙💙
Saturn
2021-08-31 00:46:45 +0000 UTCSaku pls. Take care of urself. Your health and well being come before anything else so pls, take as long as u need. Get well soon🥺💖
Leon
2021-08-30 23:17:40 +0000 UTCTough times are inevitable and you've been through so much on your journey. Don't overlook the issues your facing because your health should always come first. Take time for you and be kind to yourself, Saku! We can't have all this amazing content without you making it for us in the first place. Doesn't matter how much time it takes, just take it to get back into that healthy, optimistic, and creative mind space again. And know that your fans are here to back you up 1000% SO take your genmaicha, go sit somewhere nice while listening to your vibes, and just RELAX. CHILL. BREATHE. Make a to-do list. Just do something you enjoy! Do whatever you need to to feel better! YOU GOT THIS!
BlueberryCat
2021-08-30 23:00:50 +0000 UTCSaku, we all love you so much that we care about your health and well-being. It's not every day that you have to be productive and keep up with your content, and it's natural that you feel guilty for taking a break when you have many ideas planned for YouTube and Patreon. However, we can wait. Take that break that your body and mind need. Don't worry about us. We might not know your entire story, but we know for sure that we care about you. If you need someone to talk to, your family and friends are there. We're here as well. Taking a much needed break is just as important for a creator like you and I'm here should you ever need someone to talk to. Take good care of yourself, okay?
Chakairo Kai
2021-08-30 22:13:08 +0000 UTCthe feeling of being a creator of any kind, particularly a perfectionistic one, and then not being able to meet people's expectations is a terrible feeling that i know all too well. first and foremost, be kind to yourself and your body. prioritize eating healthy, staying hydrated, and getting enough sleep, and take a break from the channel and/or patreon if you need. however, try not to separate yourself from your craft completely. write down any ideas you have, no matter how small. do some silly voiceovers. try and remind yourself why you love doing this in the first place, and ease yourself into enjoying it again. from there, you can work your way back up to the consistency that you had. it's tempting to take shortcuts and try to get back to "normal" more quickly in order to meet expectations, but you risk burning yourself out even more afterwards, and then you have to start all over again, which makes you feel worse, and the cycle continues. we as fans can have our opinions and expectations, but in the end we're here to enjoy whatever you come up with, not to manage your channel and upload schedule. if it takes a bit longer for you to create, then so be it. we're all here for the ride that you're taking us on. sometimes that ride has its ups and downs, but it's a ride that i, and many others here, think is worth paying for. some people may think differently and move on, and that's okay too. it's just a product of what *you* need to create the content that people have come to love, as well as maintaining your physical and mental health, and that is the most important thing above all. please take care of yourself. we'll be waiting patiently for whatever adventure you take us on next 👍
Cyra
2021-08-30 22:02:23 +0000 UTCTAKE A BREAK >:V AND MY MONEY IDC but seriously like I don't mind if you're not having it. It's just one of those phases and if you need it to be sorted out then it's okay to be selfish.
Mugi .♡
2021-08-30 21:57:09 +0000 UTCSaku if you ever want to talk to me about it so please do so and it does help if you do. I am worried about you and always wonder how you are doing 😔
Mochi
2021-08-30 21:50:01 +0000 UTCThis may sound intrusive, for that I apologies, it is coming from a place of earnest concern. As someone who suffers with depression, that is what you are describing. I hope you are getting help for it. Like any other organ in your body, sometimes your mind needs therapy and/or meds. Anyone who would shame you for it, needs to reevaluate their values and/or do their research. Even if that includes yourself.
Lady Naive
2021-08-30 21:47:32 +0000 UTCyou should take a break. you’ve powered through a final year of university and went straight into working. take a couple of weeks to do whatever - a fun trip somewhere, play lots of apex/halo, binge on netflix, whatever YOU feel like doing. the fans will understand, you’re only human. 💙
bluetifulangel
2021-08-30 21:01:52 +0000 UTCSaku, you have not disappointed us! We are so proud and thankful that you're sharing your struggles with us. Burnout and other mental health issues are so much more important than productivity and I think I speak for all crumpets when I say,we rather have you healthy and happy with a break of content than exhausting yourself and feeling bad. Take a break, try to rest and remember that we support you always ( ˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈♡)
Ezra
2021-08-30 21:00:33 +0000 UTCSaku please take all the time you need. Life isn't fair nor easy. So I understand when you need time to yourself and to take breaks to rest. Please take care of yourself.
Sav~♡
2021-08-30 21:00:01 +0000 UTCSakuuuu!!! We’re always here for you! Do what is best for you and yourself and your well being. Time is always moving and I know it hard when the dark & lows are eating up at you but always know that we’ll wait. We’ll be here. And we want you to be your best and be at your comfort of ease. Never feel force to give us content, we love you very much for who you are and what you do. Take some time away, and let yourself breathe a little more or relax the day away or cuddle with Kimahri a little more, we’ll be here for you Saku! The true precious & lovely crumpets will understand and always love you and support you.
fu-ne
2021-08-30 21:00:00 +0000 UTCPlease take your time. We may not exactly understand what you are going through but we are here to support you. I always tell my friends and loved ones to always take good care of their health above all else, and that goes same with you. No matter how long it will take, we'll be patient. I wish we can help more aside from giving you all the support and love that we can give. ❤
YukiAsano
2021-08-30 20:59:23 +0000 UTCI personally don't want anything if it means you going through all of this, your health always comes first than anything else! So please don't beat yourself if you don't have any energy Just focus on yourself and we will wait for you when you are ready 💖
Michelle Ayala-Trillo
2021-08-30 20:59:02 +0000 UTCI've been wondering how you've been doing lately 🥺 Please do what's best for you and your health! 💕 We understand
DiDi (ayoDiDi)
2021-08-30 20:58:29 +0000 UTCYou should prioritise yourself Saku, we can wait and there's no conditions on that. Rest easy.
AIR
2021-08-30 20:58:08 +0000 UTCWe completely understand, Saku. We really appreciate the communication! As I’m sure you already know, we only want what’s best for you and we all need a break sometimes. I think you could really benefit from some more time off for yourself. Whatever you choose to do, I’m perfectly comfortable with it and please know you will have my continued love + support. I have the utmost respect for you and your work. Take care, King <3
Shannon T
2021-08-30 20:57:58 +0000 UTCI'm so sorry ur feeling like this :(( please don't feel bad about not posting anything, you should always make sure to take care of yourself first - just like when you're physically unwell and can't post! I really do hope that you start to feel brighter within yourself soon please take care ♡♡
Bells
2021-08-30 20:57:45 +0000 UTCPlease please please put your mental and physical well-being first. I know how frustrating it can be but you'll feel so much better focusing on your health and happiness, I promise we all understand <3
Tomie ._
2021-08-30 20:57:41 +0000 UTCSaku, of course we understand. I'm honestly surprised that you've managed to tough it out this long. You're amazingly strong and resilient but even the strongest need breaks. Do what you need to do to be ok again. We'll gladly wait and hope you get better soon.
LitFan
2021-08-30 20:57:25 +0000 UTCplease take care of urself saku :(( i know exactly how draining it can be to have people steal something you worked hard to make and i hope you do what's best for you ❤️ don't worry about us we'll wait for you !!
babymetal
2021-08-30 20:56:59 +0000 UTCi know what it’s like to experience burnout, it’s not fun. everyone deserves a break no matter how long!
rarainks
2021-08-30 20:56:08 +0000 UTCawh saku :( please take care of yourself first and foremost. your physical, mental and emotional health is top priority over anything. if you need a break, take it! everyone will understand. please dont feel guilty dear :( i and everyone here would rather you get back to feeling your best. take whatever time you need 💜
rarainks
2021-08-30 20:55:27 +0000 UTCTake your time! We all experience burnout from time to time. I know for sure that I will definitely be patiently waiting for any and all content!
Lu
2021-08-30 20:55:00 +0000 UTCGotta put yourself first! We understand and we’re here for you :)
Shileigh
2021-08-30 20:53:57 +0000 UTC
