Pausing for the month to catch up + Update

Hey everyone, I am so sorry that I have been really bad with my updates and keeping you all up to date with what is going on with me. A lot of big changes hit and I took some time to work on my mental health a lot to recuperate. I would say that by now I am on the mend and have my bearings and started working on an audio/content backlog so that I am not scrambling to work in the event of anything coming up.

So what does this really mean for you all?
Well first things first everyone here has helped me out mentally in more ways than you could know so I wanna start by saying thank you! Secondly, I wanna give you all a roadmap of my plans along with what HAS been going on to explain the lack of content you have been so diligently supporting me FOR. From July 3rd to Aug 3rd no charges will go through and patreon and my commissions will effectively be on pause for this time.

What am I doing during this time?

So this time I will not just be sitting on my butt doing fuck all haha! So the plan for me is to work on audios 3 months in advance, I know I know big gap! So for the month of July there will be a LOT of recording and a LOT of editing the whole time life permitting, and that way when payment starts back up I can actually keep my promises to you all. The hope is that it will give me wiggle room to get to everything out on time while at the same time being able to take advantage of the time I have without being stopped by fear and anxiety which has been a real issue for me lately.

Okay but what ACTUALLY has been happening?

I'll start by saying that this will dip a bit into my personal life but nothing too direct, if you prefer to not know or don't really care there is no pressure to read this part!

So a long LONG story cut short, at the end of last year I did a big cross country move to another new state and took the time to uproot my life. That second place didn't work out well and only lasted about two months before I had to go and once more move across the country to a THIRD new state in as many months. It did a number on my mental health even though there was no one to directly blame but myself for how things went down. To top it off about six weeks after the second move my cat's health deteriorated FAST with liver cancer, and she had to be put down. That was basically like kicking me while I was just starting to get my bearings. After that I did a lot of introspection to figure out what to do and thanks to some other audio creators with guidance and help one of them (GirlinDungarees) helped me figure out a plan, while I got a good grip on my mental health and how to help prevent it from dropping and affecting you all in terms of content.

Why didn't you just tell us sooner?

The short answer? Anxiety. The biggest fear I have a lot of the time is letting others down, and breaking my word. It eats me up and seeing me fail here was breaking my heart and in turn without an answer or plan it felt like I would be making a second false promise. The longer I waited the more difficult it got to come out and say it all, so I want to say I am sorry and I will do my best to try and be better. I truly love you all and want to do my best for you.

I'll finish off and just say thank you to everyone, taking the time to read this, follow me, and go as far as supporting me in a time like this. I cannot thank you enough and plan to make sure its worth it. I love you all.

Strawberry ❤❤❤