An introduction and history of me that I wrote on the spot and didnt edit, lol, I just wanted anyone new or old to know about me

Hi there!! I wanted to make a little write up of me and my history for all my new fans, supporters, and friends!!

My name is Backstreetgirl! You can call me B (Bee) BSG or Mommy depending on your tier hehe.

I'd like to tell you a little about who I am and my art journey if anyone would like to know!

When I was little artists were always my super heroes, I loved watching what they can do and how they can make people feel things with just their pictures. I thought it was absolute magic.

I have a condition known as aphantasia, which means I can't imagine new things in my head (You might have seen the meme about the rotating apple).

So I never really considered being an artist as something I could ever do.

It wasnt until I was in my early 30's (3 years ago) that I wanted to make some life changes, I wanted to try new things and be a more interesting person so I took up little new hobbies by myself, skateboarding, self improvement, and drawing!

I wanted to draw hentai and only hentai because that's what fascinated me the most when I was tiny. I know it might sound like I was a perv (I was) but something about it spoke to me the most. It had so much feeling to it and so much emotion behind it and the act of conveying sex and lust and inpiring those feelings in the viewer stuck out to me the most.

How can you make someone feel so strong with just art? So I set out to find how..

Of course 100% of the standard drawing methods just.. dont work for me lol, I didnt even know I have aphantasia at the time, but the most incredible thing about the art community is all the people who are willing to help and one website helped me the most. It is a streaming website called Pomf, which I stream there to this day.

I started there, streaming my progress since day 1 starting with mouths. I met so many amazing friends who encouraged me and pushed me forward. I met so many amazing artists who streamed as well who really showed me how different everyone draws and how non standardised art can be.

Some people went to school for years, some people drew scenes, some people stayed home all their life and drew people on the street. Their histories and methods/techniques varied so much!! I took to watching them all like hawks hoping I could pick up anything I could to draw without imagination!

Everytime I found something that clicked in my brain I wrote it down and practiced it, some things I couldnt understand but I wrote them down anyways because I know its like connecting the neural dots.

I drew every single day. When at work I would run home on my breaks and draw. At night I would fall asleep at my desk studying and drawing. I finally tasted what it was like to have a dream I could live. I was so proud of myself. I loved seeing me do things I never thought possible!

My friends and fans would always encourage me, help me, and comment on my progression and I felt so happy. I wanted this more than anything.

Bad times happen as they do and I struggled a lot in life, I tried my best to stand up but even when I was too weak everyone was there to pick me up and keep me going. Drawings a lot of hard work lol

As for why I draw what I do, a lot of reasons are because (And these reasons changed) was because it was easiest at the time. Anime style is incredibly easy to draw compared to anything else so it was a perfect thing to do, human bodies have set rules that I can follow without having to think too much. And for my.. brand of body type lol I wanted to draw hentai so much and it turns out using a specific body type and shape makes any fetish just.. a hundred times better lol

But after I ended up getting better at it I started to really appreciate the forms and intricacies of the fetish. I started appreciating and self inserting as the females, my desire to tease and name call and twist minds shining through eventually lol.

I started really loving the bodies and the differences between the partners and being super cute but dominate or being a milf who wants a happy life in a fantasy world where sex is consequence free and everyones happy.

I got to meet everyone in the community and realized how normal and fun everyone was and I noticed how badly everyones been being percieved online and in the news, people who just feel a certain way and would never hurt anyone made to feel like monsters or to hate themselves for their fetishes and I hated it, I want people to be happy with and enjoy who they are.

Its a fetish like anything else, so I love making captions and characters who help others enjoy and embrace that part of them and have some kind of outlet. I want everyone to be happy and I respect people so much who dont act on their urges.

So here I am to this day! Lately as art becomes more "background" and I grow and struggle to get better I slow down some months as I try and get back in the groove but I never thought in a million years you all would help me make a career out of this. I Love you all and I love what I do so much, thank you for always being there for me!

Even when things get rough, physically and mentally, I promise to never give up and fight for all of us, I want to be the best artist I can be and the thoughts of you squirming and cumming to my words makes me happier than you could know hehe

I masturbate when I draw thinking about all the horrible ways I can make you feel and I dont want that to stop, so please if theres any way I could improve or you want to talk to me my DM's are always open!

Im going to spend some time improving and trying to live my best life before AI takes my job lol but I want you here with me, and I want to earn your love and support <3 Thank you for listening to me and being patient when things arnt great.

Thank you for just leaving comments or asking me for links. Thank you for liking my work and making me feel like Im living my dream. Thank you for making everything I do feel worth it. I never had that in my life and I appreciate you for making it happen!

(a shout out of the artists who inspired and helped me along my journey

Pyonoyp (D0gDuk), for being my first teacher and most fun artist I know

Khaz, for teaching me about colors and composition

Born-to-Die, for teaching me form and coloring

Kevabwtf, for being a great friend and a master in all things cute

Babu, for being my reason to draw Takagi and Chi and being a good friend answering my questions

Zabbuk, for being the first to tell me to draw and inspiring me to make my own ideas

JCM2, For showing me some amazing cohesive coloring methods

Note2000, for showing me new ways to draw Takagi

Yamamoto and Inaba, for making the Takagi style I heavily base my work off of

Wagashi and Rom20 for showing me how to make really great sassy faces

AOR彩雲, for being one of my biggest inspirations and one of the first artists ive ever seen (Hes been drawing for half my life)

My fellow artists who give me something to aspire to

My fans who gave me requests to push my limits and wanted to see me grow

And all of you who support me and let me live this life <3