Prana Machine

Here's PRANA

Added 2023-08-23 02:11:34 +0000 UTC

Hello :) a couple portraits to set the mood. It's a lot more vulnerable and less fun for me to shoot my face. That's not the part that hurts and is often the part that shows how I'm really feeling... a lot of my full figure self portraits that show my face, especially those that are shot during meaningful moments of hot and heavy Suffer, convey a deep scowl. Not very serene. That's ok.

It's part of the whole. I like the tension that is portrayed in a lot of the work that I do, as tension is what drives most of how I feel all of the time.

Physical tension. A difficult moment that lasts just a hair too long. Remaining there long enough to really feel your own discomfort, instead of trading every difficulty for a distraction over and over again until youre never really leaning anywhere long enough to rest. You can't do that forever. Eventually you'll get unwillfully stuck and will have no other choice but to lean and press your weight against what is making you want to squirm away, shifting around it until the two of you become one and your discomfort and the way you press around it informs your shape and also your existence. The pain is the solid form, the stability, the constant. The pain becomes home. A mirror. The journey is the self. The body tells the story and keeps the score. The face in one instance is too telling, familiar, biased. It gives too much away... and not enough all at once.

Thanks for giving me space to really share myself in ways that I no longer feel comfortable sharing anywhere else. Really. I'm not sure who is just here for the imagery and not the process the journey the ongoing sufferings the words. I try so hard to just post imagery without the meaning and writings that take energy from my heart space and I am so moody and extra that I literally cannot. Even though it would be the easy way. I can't even just type hi without getting into it because this is my sanctuary. Moody eco slut I shall continue to be.

Prana

PS. I have more Prana shapes that I'll be sharing in a post directly after this one.