I'm doing to do my best while I can <3
Added 2024-06-06 00:48:54 +0000 UTCIt's so hard to fight lately. All i ever wanted was to have time to draw and hear your feedback and make you happy.
Everythings been such a struggle, even minor things feel so crippling. I'm not happy with my art, I cant make my visions come true anymore, I feel like im phoning it in lately and I just cant bring myself to finish these pictures if my hearts not in it. I don't want to just fake it for you all, I want to be happy WITH you..
I think I'm going to just drop my WIP's in the ATM folder and start over..
Take my time and wait until I can be happy again. I can't focus with all these pictures just looming over my head in ways I just cant finish.
Im sorry I keep dropping depressing news so much and im sorry I havnt drawn as much as I promised. I feel terrible and Im letting myself down too.
I feel like I finally achieved everything I ever wanted and through all the tregedies and the hardships I finally came through, bruised and beaten (Literall) but I finally made something of myself that I can be proud of because of you, and my heart just gives out.
I keep taking weeks off until I feel better but its not making me feel better. I honestly dont know what to do anymore. I can't give up, I dont want to. I dont want any life other than this and I worked too hard and gave up so much.
I want to try just.. resetting. Im sorry, I would refund all of you if I could, you dont deserve someone to take your money like I have and not put in effort for you. You've changed my life and I owe you so much more.
When Cutefunny is back online im gonna throw what I have in there and if you want to stay Id love to have you <3
I honestly dont know where im headed. I dont know if im ever going to be the same again, if Im going to have to quit art and go back to a full time job or just, I dont know. I have no idea.
Just know I care about you all and you made my life worth living. Thank you for being there.
My discord is someotherchick if you want to talk or need links. I need some time.
Edit: I also wanted to thank you guys for always being there. I always read and love your words of encouragement. I dont want you to think its getting wasted. It really does help. I think what I need is MEANINGFUL time away, not just "Time spent mad im not drawing" Like a vacation vacation where I enjoy something else for once
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Here's my two cents: I really like anime and video games. I was a NEET for almost 2 years. At first it was nice, but eventually I started really disliking it. Money wasn't a problem. I could watch any anime I wanted, I could play any game I wanted, whenever I wanted for as long as I wanted. I had everything I wanted, so why was I not happy? I didn't undertand. Getting a job actually improved my life significantly and helped me start enjoying my hobbies again. A decent job can give you a lot more than just money. It can give you balance, stability, purpose, etc. You could try getting a “normal” job and keep doing this on your free time. If nothing else it could serve as a distraction to clear your mind.
chewbacadrunk
2024-06-06 06:41:10 +0000 UTCIt’s better to take your time and if you can only make sketches that’s fine. They look just as good as your finished pieces. We all appreciate the effort you do and it’s completely fine to reset if you need to. Things like this happen to a lot of artists and you just need to take a break when you need to <3
.A.
2024-06-06 04:14:37 +0000 UTCDon't rush things, it's done when it's done, artwork especially, the work you do is great and I haven't even seen much of it uncensored lol, take your time, take the pressure off and get a new angle on moving forward, mental health is a bit like climbing up a mountain and you can't tell how far you are down or up, just keep climbing mate and get back to it when you feel like you're at the top.
Red
2024-06-06 02:05:14 +0000 UTCI've had similar struggles, and still do; what I'm learning from them is that nobody can blame you for something that isn't your fault, including you.
briareus123
2024-06-06 01:30:09 +0000 UTC
