backstreetgirl

Thank you so much for another amazing month and letting me into your lives

Added 2023-09-02 01:07:41 +0000 UTC

And also for being in my life.

Life updates!

So im taking a couple days to level my head. I'm struggling a lot with whether I should keep my full time job or not.

Ive been suffering a lot because of how much I spread myself thin trying to live my dreams and work my long random hours.

Deep down I've just been having a hard time dealing with knowing half My life is out of my control being forced to do something I hate and I've been losing a lot of sleep because I don't want tomorrow to happen. Unfortunately the lack of sleep is affecting my drawing. I was hoping to drop to part time later but because of you guys I've saved up more than enough to give me a little bit of a buffer, so maybe I could test dropping it entirely and just devote myself to art full time! I make a little less doing that but with the spare time I can open up commissions officially and do other jobs as well! I feel like the world will open up a lot more.

of course there is still a lot to think about like health insurance and emergency money. But due to my string of bad luck last year and this almost everything I have is new (because I lost almost everything) and I think it will be a long while before anything explodes.

guys thank you so much. This is a wonderful crisis to have and it's all thanks to your love and support.

honestly I just hope I can earn your support in the future. I never wanted to ask for money or support, I just want to make you guys happy while doing what I love, and I really hope I can keep that model going forward. I love you guys a lot. I'll be taking a few days to cry and readjust my brain. Please talk to me if you need anything and I would love to hear from you just to say hi! Trust me you're no bother and you mean a lot to me. Silverdollarb is my discord and I also message on here. Anyways, goodnight all! I'll be uploading Pics in a few days once the panic attacks settle!