Guys you made this the best month since I started drawing. Thank you so much!

I've had such an outreach of friends and support since my accident and I honestly thought all hope was lost.

But not only am I recovering financially and mentally thanks to you but we're thriving!

I feel like I can finally breathe again and be a lot happier in life! I have a vision of the future and I'm really excited to see it finally.

For those of you that dont know I have aphantasia, which means I can't really create images in my head the way normal people do, so as you can imagine learning to draw is very hard for me.

As a little girl I just thought art was a super power that i could never have and I admired artists to death. They were everything to me and it blew my mind that, from their imagination, they could make me feel all kinds of emotions.

i tried and failed a lot and had no idea why it didn't work. I didn't even know aphantasia was a thing.

i picked up art very recently and as I studied more and more I learned about my condition(s) and i sought out as many people as I could and made up my own ways to draw and learn. I started streaming day one and the support and love from my friends and followers pushed my forward no matter how hard things got.

I cried, had panic attacks, lost countless hours of sleep, and I've had to deal with tragedy after tragedy (and broken bones) but my friends kept showing me the light I was looking for all my life And you Picked me up and helped me on my feet again. You guys are all my friends.

im still not the best at figuring out how to learn but I'm standing here now, a 32 year old woman, with a potential FUTURE in art because of you. Not just a hobby but I could maybe do this full time if this keep up! Thats amazing. Sometimes I think about the amazing turn my life has taken and I can't help but cry. I will forever be grateful for each and every one of you. I always try and respond to every single message sent and fanmail received. Every donation I respond personally.

I can't believe we are where we are today.

it makes me want to try harder.

i always want to continue art with the idea that you should only pay for a fanbox with the pics you like and not the whole month so I will always keep gold tier cheap.

the atm and raffle tier was a huge boost for us and I understand many people might be here to check me out or not like what they see and that's okay! I appreciate you giving me a chance!

I hope I can make much more lewd content

to earn your subscribtion! ill do my best to make at least 5 special dialogues a month but I'm going to ahoot for more if I can.

id Love to have you all Around for as long as I can. I love and appreciate you all! Thanks for everything and more!

hopefully if the subscribers stays steady for half a year I can go part time in My full time job and draw Lots more! Maybe do commissions! Thanks for helping me realize my dream that I didn't even know I had haha

anyways hit me up on pixiv mail or discord (silverdollarb) and I'll always make time for you just like you have for me!!

As for monthly updates, I'm working on one more pic and one more atm dialogue. I got much more in the works for next month too so I'd love to see you there because I'm going to do my best!!

Love you so much!