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Hello! I am still really enjoy going through year-ago pix in catharsis while I await news of my nomadic fate.

I'm also enjoying sharing tidbits as I go, so long as they aren't showing off how bad my posture still was in them. Don't worry I will tell you again :D

It's actually been really validating and healing. It is so cool how much things can look different when revisiting them a year later-- in art or relationships or really whatever. I'm lucky to be able to revisit art I made while going through such dramatic changes-- changes that most people don't ever experience. The familiarity of old photos coupled with a perspective freshened by time has been an interesting anchor point while everything else is so fuzzy and confusing-- to a point where I wouldn't otherwise remember the last two years really well. I've been gaining a lot more clarity recently, and I'm looking forward to finishing digesting the past two years of my pain and photo journey so I can organize it for myself and to share with you!

I shot this (with terrible hyper-mobility! This sand fucked me up for daysss. I had no clue yet too!!) at the Great Sand Dunes in Colorado on the way to California at the very end of 2018. All of this was totally new to me-- the pain, the photos, everything. At the time, I picked and shared the last photo with the world cuz it looked the best. 

I was going through this set today and got stuck on this fucking perfect pretzel shape that I didn't give a moment's notice when I shot it two years ago. I completely understand why. I was in the dark, then. All I wanted was for my body to look like other healthy, "attractive" bodies. No, not how fat it is (body dysmorphia can take many forms), but how synched the ribs are and how untucked the pelvis is-- things I didn't understand the terminology for at the time, let alone the muscle movements to fix them. 

To this day, synched ribs are literally HOT. Posture Porn. I digress.  The perspective of the last pic doesn't reveal any hyper-mobility... it doesn't really convey anything for me. None of the struggle and thus none of the empowerment. Not like the pretzel does for me now. Just LOOK AT IT. 

Full throwback set for Rib Flare+ involving some BIG FAT RIBS. And a LITTLE PINK BUSH. 

Happy whatever :)