I miss you

 Seoul, 13 March 2023

It's been almost 2 months I like you, my first love!

18 years old...

I met you...

At 18, my first love was written in tears...

Yes, it's because I'm late that I can't have you.

You have a lover and I know it. I still stubbornly like you... Yes, I was wrong in the first place. I shouldn't have started this kind of love...

You will never understand, not even once...

Hey, you idiot!

I like you, like you very much...

You rejected me...Yeah that hurt me a lot. At first, I thought you were older than me, so I called you brother. Do you know the saying "If you don't be a lover, you can do it. good brother" of you, is it like a knife cut in my heart?

I still accept to be a good brother to you. Later on, you said you were my age. We changed from good brothers to best friends. Do you know that I always force myself to remember that...

"Bang! You and Dung are just close friends, nothing more, nothing less. Please throw this sentiment away, you and he can't be together."

Every day, I tell myself many times like that. I myself do not want to be a minor in the relationship between you and your lover. But, feelings are still difficult to say. stubbornly like you... Every time I text you, do you know that I always emphasize the word "best friend"? It's to force myself to remember that you and I are just close friends, nothing more, nothing less. .There are things that are difficult to explain, especially love.

The first time, I met you when we were at the staff meeting. Me at that time just dialed the phone and didn't pay attention to anyone. I silently dialed the phone and anyone asked anything, I answered. The second time I met him was the time when I gathered staff to receive staff shirts with work assignments. The third time, at that time, I didn't understand why I liked him again ^^. Just felt that he was very student. and I'm just like me. Sometimes I don't need any reason to like someone... I don't know how to speak, so you and I can't talk much. You and I have facebook add. but I also don't have the courage to text you. And you know? You are the motivation for me to work part-time every day. Even

 without talking, I'm happy just seeing you. time, I inboxed to confess my love to you...And I was rejected .I told myself not to look at your face, but me and you work in the same place, you can't dodge anyway ,I hope I can quickly stop liking you.But, I still can't let go of you.I opened your facebook block and told you to add my facebook again.I lied to you that my facebook has a problem.

That night, I came home and found him accepting my facebook friend request. I plucked up the courage to text him, he also replied back. And gradually I kept actively texting him... I put everything aside and took the initiative to talk to him. At first, only I opened my heart to him, and he just listened to me. There were many times when I felt very sorry for myself. Because I talked a lot, I You just reply back to me. I started forming a habit. That's waiting for you to come home from work and will actively inbox to talk to you. The reply is when you throw my message somewhere. then you will watch and not rep.

I lied to you a lot ^^. The first thing was that I lied to you to everyone in the bar that I had an appendectomy and needed to take 5 days off. Actually, I didn't have to have surgery. It's just that my mother came to Seoul from far away Buon Ma Thuot to visit me, but I always work part-time around 11 or 12 at night. That's why I made up a story so that I could take an extra 5 days off work. The second thing is that I lied to you because I couldn't ride a motorbike after surgery, so I wanted you to give me a ride home... Actually it was just a lie to justify my selfishness. .When being transported by you, even though the two of us could only say a few sentences, I enjoyed that short time...But, being transported by you for 2 weeks was not complete. Because, after On the first Saturday of the week he drove me home, I got a text message that I was fired the following Sunday.

Do you guys have a reason why I was fired? The reason I was fired was because I told the owner's mother, "Miss, please order quickly, I'm too tired". Actually, that Saturday was very I was tired, because there was a soccer game that day, so there were a lot of customers. I was a waiter so I ran from the 1st floor to the 2nd floor to order drinks. It was really tiring, I know I shouldn't say that. .Well, you have to call me up for anything and give me a satisfactory explanation. Over here, not a word

 has fired me. So try to put you in my position to see if you feel inhibited. Are not?

I forgot to tell you this story. I have a friend named Ngoc Kei who I was close to when I was in college. This year, I'm a freshman at Duy Tan University. First impression

When I met Kei, it was small and cute. The feeling of looking at her is wanting to protect. I am very close to Kei, everything is very good with Kei. You know? Even though my house is very far from Kei's house. No matter how late the shift is, I still drive Kei home. Because I think it's dangerous for a girl to go home alone late at night, if she meets some perverted boys, she will what? To the best of me, telling the story that I like Dung is also confiding in Kei. But, responding to my sincere heart is Kei's dirtyness. Just because a son throws away his friendship, think about it. Kei is like? they help you again. Later on, I only feel Lin Her life is becoming more and more deviant. Kei talks very softly, and is often flattery, so she is very popular with the guys in the shop. As for me, I get hated a lot... When I bring up the story that I was played badly by Kei, No one believes me. Kei is very good at persuading others and because of her gentle appearance, no one thinks that Kei can do such terrible things. I become a bad character in everyone's eyes. You know? In a fairy tale, the princess is always built as a gentle image. The witch will be built as an evil image, full of life. tricks. But, few know. Will still be ignored, will still be loved. What about witches? Every day, witches receive criticism and everyone wants to corner witches. Or simply in a movie. , female lead The female lead is the female lead, the viewer does not need to find out why the female lead becomes evil. Viewers only feel that the female lead is always pitiful, the supporting female is obnoxious. Life is So, there is no concept of fairness to anyone.

I always find a way to dig up a lot of things to talk to Dung, but then he only responds to me with polite words. Or he watched without replying to my messages ^^. Since then I got fired, my only time to talk was when he came back from work. I had formed a habit - waiting for him to come home from work and would fly in to talk to him. Maybe because Because I took the initiative, he was used to letting me take the initiative. Never

 before, he took the initiative to talk to me. Sometimes I often think that, if one day I disappear, will he? Will you come looking for me? But, I realized don't expect too much. The times I disappeared, he didn't look for me even once. Can you tell if it's our daughter? How does it feel to like someone who doesn't like you back? That's falling into the void of hurt. Sometimes, the person you like doesn't like you, but the person you don't like in return. go like me.Sometimes Even though we know that love story won't go anywhere, we still insist on jumping into it. Like me, my story with Dung won't go anywhere. He has a girlfriend, me and him just There are two words "best friend". But, I always feel very uncomfortable when a girl is close to him, even though he and I are nothing. You can blame me. selfish, blame me no matter what. Because every mistake is my fault. You know? When texting with Dung, he always says things that make me delusional and then again Force yourself not to think wild thoughts.

Last holiday, I went home with my family for a few days. During the past 4 days, he texted me very gently. Made me feel that there was something going on between him and me. relationship between the two of us. That's right, when I came back to Seoul from home. I heard people say that his girlfriend came down to Seoul to visit him. Feeling a certain moment, I was very hurt. deeply. Yes, his girlfriend came down, and I am just his friend. I have no right to be sad because of him. But in the end, he still hurt me. I chose to disappear for 2 days, I tried to avoid Dung for 2 days. Within those 2 days, I thought carefully. And finally I chose to give up on him. Although it was very difficult, I still decided to give up. "To you, little tree

I prefer to call him small than Dung. This is the nickname I gave him personally. I just want to say that 2 months I like him is not long, but it is the days when I am always tired. Like him ,I only get indifferent from you.I always take the initiative in everything.I can sit and listen to you talk about many things.And you know?I always take care of you little by little...Mr. didn't know the things