Important changes in all tiers and personal updates

Hello everyone! It's been a while and I really miss you guys ;v;

Let's get right to the point. The changes in tiers include the following:

a) Name change: It's now a simple Tier One, Two, and Three.

b) Adding a new $4 Tier. The original $5 NSFW tier will be deleted after two months, before November 1st. If you're subscribed to this tier, please edit your pledge to other tiers (or cancel it) during these two months. And if you're still subscribed to it when the tier is being deleted, your subscription will be deleted altogether. If you have any questions regarding how to edit the tier, feel free to DM me or ask in the comment section.

c) Changes in tiers:

Tier One ($2, former "Early Access" tier): 

• Changed "Early access to all finished art" to "Early access to SFW art"
• Deleted "Early access to comic update"

Tier Two ($4, replacement for the former "NSFW" tier): 

• Added "Early access to comic update". 
• Changed "Access to NSFW content (2-3 update per month)" to "Access to NSFW art (once a month minimum)".  

Tier Three ($6, former "NSFW+" tier): 

• Added "Step by step process" and "WIPs and sketches"

And that's it for the announcement. I'll talk about some personal stuff and also the reason behind this below. You can stop here if you'd like.

To put it simply, deleting the $5 Tier is something I have been hesitating to do for a long time. On the one hand, this tier has taken up a large portion of the income Patreon has brought me. In addition to my basic living expenses, it allowed me to save money to replace my drawing equipment and renovate my room. To be honest I'm just blown away and felt so lucky to have you guys support me along the way. On the other hand, this tier was the most popular one, and the fear of losing my financial support if I changed it made me hesitate to make any changes.

I set myself a standard of at least two to three NSFW images a month to fit the price of this tier. From the black and white doodles at the beginning, to pwp comics (Overload), to various single page color comics. During the color comics period it was the fastest growing time for my Patreon membership, but it was also the most effort-consuming, and soon I couldn't continue to work in that way, so I switched to single color pictures. With the start of the new series, I put most of my creative energy into "Foreign Hands" and felt I had to be able to meet the standard I had set for myself - at least two to three updates per month and  four pages per update. Before it got to sex scenes, I also drew extra NSFW pic for the $5 tier members, and tried to finish commissions at the same time. I didn't realize how much pressure and workload I was putting on myself at that time.

Then at the end of July, I experienced a quite serious anxiety attack compare to the ones I had before. I rarely talk about this problem of mine on social media because I considered it a sign of weakness when something like this happens to me. (I know it's wrong to regard it this way) But those standards I set for myself finally overwhelmed me. The last NSFW pic in July was made under high pressure and I was so unsatisfied with it that I couldn't even reopen it or stare at it for more than 1 second. Shortly after, no matter what I do, no matter which social media site I opened and no matter what I saw on them, they all transformed to accusations in my head and accused me of not being good enough. Many uncontrollable thoughts came to my mind and one of which was that I should shut down my Patreon page.

I knew, even if the thought was appealing at the time, that I didn't really want to shut it down. I want to keep it running and let it support my creativity, not to overwhelm me.

Then I realized I wanted to disappear, so I temporarily deactivate my Twitter and Plurk accounts. 

After almost a month of adjustment, I have decided to face my anxiety problem and reduce the source of stress. Removing the $5 NSFW tier was the primary one. The new $4 tier will only have at least one NSFW art per month (maybe more if I'm inspired but no guarantees).

In addition, the progress of "Foreign Hands" will also be postponed because I want to complete the commission list first. Because obviously I can't handle so many things at the same time. 😂 (and the Pure White Anthology!!)

Finally, thank you very much for reading this long ass babbling. I will face my problems and try to manage them. And I'm truly grateful for all the support. Love you all<3

大家好久不見，這個月停了推特跟噗浪還真有點想念大家;;v;;

總之先簡單說明方案的重大變更：

（一）方案更名：把方案改成簡單的一、二跟三

（二）新增4鎂方案，原NSFW的5鎂方案將在兩個月後、11月1日前移除。方案中的會員請在這兩個月期間，自行調升或調降方案。如果在刪除方案時您仍在5鎂方案中，您的贊助會員將會一併被取消，因此這兩個月我會重複的提醒大家自行修改方案。如果對修改方案有任何問題都可以直接私訊或留言問我。

（三）方案內容變更：

※方案一（$2，原Early Access方案）：

• 修改成"可提前看非R18單張作品"
• 刪除"可提前閱讀漫畫更新"。

※方案二（$4，替代舊的NSFW方案）：

• "可提前閱讀漫畫更新"移到了這個方案
• 將"每月2-3次更新R18內容"修改成"可看R18內容（每月最少1次）"

※方案三（$6，原NSFW+方案）：

• 增加"繪圖過程與步驟"和"作品途中與草圖"

以上是公事，以下解釋一下變更方案的原因和說說話。

簡單來說，刪除5鎂方案，其實是一個我長久以來不斷地猶豫不決是否要做的事情。一方面，這個方案在Patreon為我帶來了的收入中佔了大宗，讓我除了基本生活費之外，還能存錢換畫圖設備、重新裝修房間等等。為此，謝謝兩個字遠不足以表達我內心的感激。另一方面，這個方案也是最多會員選擇的方案，更改方案後失去經濟來源的恐懼讓我遲遲無法做出任何改變。

在我給我自己設下的標準裡面，一個月至少要兩到三張R18的圖，才可以符合這個方案的價錢。從開創時期的黑白塗鴉，到pwp漫畫（Overload），到各種單頁彩漫，彩漫時期也是我的Patreon會員成長最快的時候，但也是最為花費心力的，很快的我便無法持續以這個方式繼續作業，便改成單張彩圖的形式。隨著新連載開始，我將大部分的創作能量放在"Foreign Hands"上頭，並認為自己必須能夠達到自己設下的標準—每個月至少更新兩到三次、每次4頁。在它還沒進展到床戲前，我也額外畫了R18的圖給5鎂方案的會員，同時間也試著趕委託的排單進度。我當時沒有意識到我給自己多少壓力與工作量。

然後在七月底的時候，我經歷一次跟以往相比較為嚴重的焦慮症發作。我極少在社群網站上提起自己的這一塊問題，因為我認為自己發生這樣的事情是軟弱的表現（我知道這樣想是錯的）。但是我給自己設下的眾多標準終究還是壓垮了我，7月最後一張R18漢康圖是在高壓狀態下擠出來的，我對它不滿意至極甚至無法重新打開它或盯著它看超過1秒，接下來不管我做甚麼、打開哪個社群網站看到任何內容，他們都變成好像在指責我的能力不足，在短短幾分鐘內我感到極大壓力，很多不受控制的想法都出現在我的腦海中，其中一個是刪除Patreon頁面。

即使那一瞬的想法再怎麼吸引人，我都知道我並非真的想關掉Patreon。我想要的是持續經營它，讓它成為支持我創作的利器，而不是本末倒置的壓垮我。

接著我意識到我想消失，於是便暫時關閉了推特跟噗浪的帳號。

在經過將近一個月的調整之後，我決定要面對自己的焦慮問題並減少壓力來源，撤除5鎂方案是最主要的，而新的4鎂方案每月最少只會有一張R18特典（心血來潮時可能會更多，但不做保證）。

另外，"Foreign Hands"之後的進度也會推遲，因為我想先以完成委託排單為主。因為顯然的我沒辦法同時間處理那麼多事情XDDD（還有Pure White合本！）

最後很謝謝你看完這一串哩哩拉拉的長文，也非常感謝大家的支持，我會正視自己的問題並嘗試調整他們，希望可以得到改善。愛你們<3