What's in my Uterus?

EDIT: This post is now public. :)

So, I'm planning on doing a video about this on my main channel, but y'all are getting the update first. If you follow me on social media or leave comments on my videos, please be discreet, as this is just between us for now.

I'm pregnant again! A little over 15 weeks.

In brief:

My husband and I have known that we wanted a third child for quite some time now. So, this pregnancy was extremely welcome news, especially after a traumatic miscarriage that I went through following an unexpected (but then very much wanted) pregnancy last fall.

Pregnancies are extremely difficult for me. During pregnancy, I tend to get bombarded by pretty much all of the unpleasant symptoms and side effects that you may have heard of: severe nausea, loss of appetite, headaches, heartburn, swelling, body pains, extreme susceptibility to back injury, really bad insomnia ... the works. The most debilitating of all of the symptoms, unfortunately, are depression and anxiety. I have had progressively worse and worse experiences with these symptoms during each of my pregnancies, and following my second pregnancy I also battled postpartum depression for about a year.

The good news is that I have been, in many ways, prepared for this. Between my past pregnancies and a history of anxiety and depression that goes back to my childhood, I knew exactly what I was getting into when I chose to get pregnant again. I went into this with open eyes and a battle plan. I've set up an excellent support network, and have been coordinating between my obstetrician, my therapist, my psychiatric nurse practitioner, and my husband to make sure that my mental and physical health needs are handled as carefully and vigilantly as possible during this difficult time.

That's pretty much it for now. I have made some vague allusions to not being well over the past few months, and I've struggled to fulfill patron perks in a timely manner (thank you so much for your patience, by the way), so I've been wanting to provide you all with some clarity. My hope is that any of you who are predisposed to worry about me will worry less if I offer more transparency on my situation.

This is a challenging time for me, but it is also a joyful and grateful time. Between my health providers, my extraordinarily supportive husband, and my amazing viewers, I know I have the best support network I could possibly have. Thank you. I love you. I hope you're all well and being kind to yourself. You deserve it.

Love,
JB