Daily Update: Brain Trolls
Added 2017-12-02 16:55:44 +0000 UTCHave any of you guys ever dealt with anxiety? Not just apprehension or doubt, but full-blown paralyzing fear of every day stuff? Because I get hit with it about once or twice a month. Pretty bad cases, too. Medical anxiety. Mortal terror. Fear for my life.
Hi, my name is Benji, and I'm a hypchondriac.
My neurosis is there all the time, just lurking in the background. If ever I try to confront some minor physiological anomaly I'm unfamiliar with, it climbs out and demands a tax of time and attention and general mental well-being. Right now I'm dealing with a strained abdomen (from doing like, 5 reps of a high-intensity exercise I probably shouldn't have been doing after a straight year of chair-sitting), which is really painful but not something you generally need to worry too much about. But there's this fat troll in my head, prodding my gut and saying "Nawp, nawp, see, what'chu got der is a hernia! Come on now, sit wiv me an' fret about it for a while, then I'll let ya through!" And of course, part of my psyche believes him, and part of my body believes my psyche and starts showing symptoms, and then even more of my psyche feeds into it, and over and over...
It's a pretty frustrating way to live sometimes. Chloe's an incredible help, and working on TF generally keeps my mind off of it, but it can get in the way even on my best days.
It doesn't rule my life though, because no matter how bad my perceived "condition" gets, I'll always want to leave something important behind. TF is that something. So it takes precedence, always.
Speaking of TF work, you guys'll be glad to know that the H.P. Lovecraft episode is officially 1/3 complete! Since all I'm doing is animating now (all the assets/audio are prepared and waiting to be placed on the timeline), it shouldn't be long at all.
Thanks for being patient. Hopefully this post wasn't TMI—it's just something worth knowing about me and my work/life balance.
—Benji, foundry artist/writer
