Im sorry y’all it’s been 2 weeks
Added 2025-02-14 00:29:36 +0000 UTCHere’s one on the house, but the finished drawing will be for paid memebers only.
It’s not hard to see that I was a grifter for-…fuck my iPad deleted everything I was saying so I’m trying to remember it all. I don’t want this to come off insincere now cuz my whole thing was done and gone now so…ok uh
I was basically grifting for a solid year, (somewhere around 2022 and stopped once the porn stopped), and made 2 randomizer wheels to tell me what to draw. One was for the show or character, the other was for if it was gonna be sfw or nsfw + poses, of which I collecting hundreds of heavily categorized references. So this made it so that I never had to think about what I was making at all.
All that to say, this method + my ever disintegrating feelings about my work = a fried ass brain, so bad to the point I don’t remember what it’s like to enthusiastically draw something from a genuine place anymore. And I keep reflecting on the fact that when I was tied down I was a race horse but now that I’m free I can barely walk. And both have seemed to be a sinking ship, I stopped the grift cuz it stopped working, and this remaining arc is to be resurrected with something more real. Which is why I’m typing anything in the description cuz it’s uhh eh it’s probably really annoying and actually very damaging to the people that just want me to be entertaining, but idk I think it’s cool.
Anyways thanks
