My Plans for the Future.

If you’re reading this, you’re part of the reason I’m able to survive even in such a hostile situation. So thank you. I want anyone who even gave a single dollar to understand my clear thoughts because the way I was talking it was like “yay he’s happy but he sounds like he snapped lol” so I totally understand.

THIS MONTH:

-sex work is the only way I can make money cause I can’t find my tablet, keyboard, PC cables, so I’m fine just drawing nudes of myself and porn of close friends who support me fooling around with my sona. If you’ve get a huge pledge please do not feel obligated to be sexual with me it’s just an offer because I feel anyone who cares about my art work enough to spare that much money I can trust very much. So if have a boyfriend and are happy with him and don’t wanna mess stuff up, no worries. But if you’re open and you find me attractive, I love most body types so I want to reciprocate how beautiful you guys have made me feel.

-originally I was going to move in May-June with my roommates to a small college town of a pretty big school. But because I’ve had epiphanies and I’ve changed the way I behave with this new for of medication that works very well for me, and my new happy persona is a little much for my roommates, I need to rethink my plan. Ideally I would still like to live in that small college town. It’s a town I’ve visited when I was younger and it’s one of the best schools in the country. I’m very young so I’m just gonna be patient and see where life takes me. Who knows maybe I’ll have a boyfriend/sugar daddy who will take me in and I won’t need to go there. The reason I wanted to go there was because my best friend goes to that college. She’s legit my closest friend, if she was a guy I would of married her when I went to school with her. But I have sexual needs only a man can fulfill. No one makes me laugh as much as she can. She understand me perfectly. So if I manage to save up to around 5K while I’m in this halfway home (housing for recovering criminals or misdiagnosed mentally ill people) I could still move in to that college town and because apartments there are super cheap I can live comfortably for a while.

I know you’re going through a hard time right now but what if you owe me a commission what should I do?

I was not expecting to be homeless a week ago. I was actually planning on flying to have a date with a guy I like a lot have always wanted to see but I’ve just been too shy to ask him out. So I ask that if I owe you a commission you please way until I have a solid home. A good amount of money so I don’t have this financial crisis looming over me. If I don’t meet any one who would want me to live with them, then I’ll still move to that college down and I’ll just relax there making the art I wanna make while showing you guys my body building process! Please way till sometime July to request a refund or a status on your own commissions.

If you won’t be taking commissions how will you be making money? with patreon it gives me a gentle stream of money that if I don’t touch it, it can accumulate to the amount I need. Right now I’m no where near close but I just need to feel out what’s going on.

If you’re not gonna do commissions or can’t draw, why am supporting you as an artist?

So I’ve always had this fear of rejection with my ideas. I have so many ideas for shows and series that I want to write. I’m a good pitcher and catcher but the dance in between of well constructed story telling I don’t have yet. I’m cocky but I want to make a few pilots for series I’ve watched to make since I was 12. I’ve made so many characters that I’ve been drawing for so long but I just felt no one would care about? And now I don’t really have a choice so why not go for it? That’s why I asked for voice actors, I know my vision very clearly so I can write and draw the pitches solidly. A lot of very talented voice actors messaged me and holy wow a lot of you have such awesome voices that I just have to save a role for you! If you messaged me about that and I haven’t replied, feel free to message me again and ask if I’m still interested in your voice acting demo! I need voices for so many characters so I’ll take anyone who sounds good to my ears. Ideally my dream would be work with the cast of Oneyplays. Christ O’Neil and Zach hadel has this natural sense of humor that I could never write. And I feel they’re close enough to the gross corners of the internet that them working (I assume this cause they make a lot of jokes about furries and Chris openly associates with a controversial porn artist named Shadman. The thing I know that I can write confidently is weight tolling dramas. But writing comedy is so fucking hard. I feel Zach is so naturally humorous that if I didn’t have him as main character I’d want him to be the direct writer for all the humor because it’s legit scary how naturally hilarious he is. I know the character id give the voice of Chris to, I even have a voice for Lyle wrath and Joshua Tomar, but with Chris and Zach I’m not sure what I want to do with them but I want to work with them for sure. I want my cartoons to be black comedies about mental health. I also want to make films of extremely depressing scary real terror subjects. But that’s for another time! If you’re interested in the progress of me writing these ideas cause I’ve got like 5 pitches i want to bring to either Mike Lazzo, Netflix, HBO, or I just will put it on the internet if they won’t take it. I’m not gonna compromise my own vision for others. I know what I can’t do and that’s write comedy. But I know damn well I can make a brutal horror film that’ll just leave you feeling sick with how disgusting the world is. Mike lazzo has been the director at adult swim for a long time, I think since it’s creation, and he’s been involved with some of it not all of my favorite shows, I would trust his judgment but if he wanted to change small stupid details I wouldn’t sell the idea. I legit feel that if I grow a bit enough following one here thay Netflix might actually take it because they took beastars and they made bojack horseman. And I think that would be the best platform because most people under the age of 30, haven’t watch TV since like early 2010. I have an idea for 2 kid shows, on the same level of maturity as like Steven universe but much darker, and like 4 adult black comedies and some legit just brutal tragedy. Who knows maybe I’ll be the next Matt groaning or hayao Miyazaki. But I know very well that neither Williams Street or anyone from oneyplays turn their heads at a pitch until I have something to show for it. So it all starts with you! The best stories are told by good friends entertaining each other. I think I’m pretty easy going so I can listen to what people have to say and think about wether I should work with them or not. If this gets picked up by anyone I want all the voice actors I work with to be employed and credited so they get their end of the stick for their amazing performances. I suspect that they’ll want to attach a big name to it and honestly I’m okay with being replaced, I rather play background voices or characters that get shit on as an inside joke, like the irony that creator of the entire show is just a background noise lol. I have a few big names I would love to work with like Jon H. Benjamin, I think he’d be perfect for Meiko and my dream would be to work with Will Arnett as Swayne. I think he as one of the deepest sexiest voices ever. I think one of the reasons people felt okay with accepting they’re like bojack or see themselves in bojack is cause will’s voice is so fucking sexy and manly that even with the most toxic personality you can’t help but wanna listen to him speak. So far I haven’t met anyone who fits the sauve voice of swayne. Swayne is legit one of my most special characters and I won’t compromise on what I want him to be. I might end up having to train my voice to sound as deep and sexy as I imagine his voice. And it’s possible to do that! I can teach you if you’re interested :)

So summary!

Priority of April:

-find voice actors and people to work with creatively.

-post nudes and make more art of me being a sex doll cause I just need to accept I’m a fucking nymphomaniac.

-work on my big idea.

-workout on my body to get more money from sex work and just feel over all great!

-rest and not rush myself.

So remember: if you’d like to work with me message me on telegram. And if you’d like keep up with my activity you can check what I’m doing on discord. I’ll most likely just be listening to music and resting until I find a good group to try a table reading with. Organizing my room and relaxing is what I’ll be doing after I post this :)