the peak of my life

there was a concert. of a musician who has touched my soul like no other. his subjects, the way he played, the sound, just drove me to a euphoric state I couldn't describe. originally I was gonna go with my friend but she backed out last second so i had to walk and take trains to the venue. i waited in the wrong line and didn't get the advantages I thought I was paying for because of it. they didn't let me in with my bag from work so I had to hide it in a bush near the concert hoping no one would find it and steal it. I had come all this way and I couldn't see myself walking all the way back just because of a bag. before the show started I was angry and annoyed with how fucked everything had come out. I was crowded in a sea of people much taller than me so I was being crushed and I barely had a good view even though I paid for front row. but then the music came in.

and I saw him on stage. the man who had created every song that remedied every negative emotion i ever had into a beautiful psychedelic dream. I couldn't help but cry while i sang along to every single song. the girls next to me kept trying to shove me back but i was all alone so i had to hold onto that bar for dear life. they were valley girls that I felt laughing at me cause of how emotional i was getting for all this but i couldn't give less of a shit. for those 3 hours I was in another plain. a galaxy I strive to reach for every time I listen to his music. there is no level of joy I have ever felt in those moments. every single moment I had lived for was for this moment. there's a level of love that no partner could ever fill. its a spiritual love. someone that feels like they're singing just for you. like every word was meant for you. I hope to one day touch people with that feeling i feel for him whenever I find that financial stability to make music. music is the most powerful art form. and I miss having that level of passion for art. I've lost it but I hope I don't lose it when I make music. because that passion and tenderness and intimacy I felt in those 3 hours were more infatuating and joy filling than the past few decades of my life I had lived for drawing. 

(i know this isn't what you paid for but I know you enjoyed reading it. I wanted to make a quick passion doodle cause this song is hitting a way I haven't felt in a long time.)