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May 2023 Patron Update & Discord Server Link

Hey everyone! Below is the link for the discord if you need it. It's good for a week; message me if you need a new one after that! Otherwise, here's the update for the month!

The video above will have the emotional details, but in the short term, I'm finishing up a video (today, actually) about masculinity and trans folks. I wanna sit with it a week before releasing it cause it was... a really emotionally difficult video to make for reasons that will be very obvious once you see it... but I hope it ends up being helpful to folks... You should have it next week!

I've got some other big videos coming, such as the Star Wars one, and I'm working on two other big ones, including Sex in Star Trek DS9 (which I'm so pumped for). But beyond that, I'm also thinking about slowing down my output for my mental health a bit and so I can focus on making these videos great, ALONG with Identiteaze.

This... brings me to Identiteaze itself! As some of you may have seen, we announced SOME of the cast, including Jasika Nicole (who you nerds probably know as Astrid from Fringe) and Ezra Reeves (a fantastic nonbinary actor from 4400). They're both SOO AMAZING and the sweetest, smartest, and most talented people you'll ever meet. And let me say... they're just the beginning. Gonna be honest... I had a meeting last week to work on a scene with an actor that... well, all I can say is that the meeting was not for the timid. It was wonderful. I'm so pumped for this thing, and I can't wait till I can tell you all more... soon, very soon!

And finally, gonna be honest. I've been having a lot of... burnout when it comes to getting videos done beyond what I just shared above. I've wanted to do videos on things like Bud Light; Missouri, Montana, Texas... and just all the places where trans people are under attack, and... it's hard right now. I think part of my need to slow down; beyond all the work I'm doing, is just... the burden of it all. It's rough. I don't need to tell you all, you know. But IDK, I just get scared that if I don't keep working, I'm failing to help others who need me and trans stuff right now. It's a mindset thing that I know is BS but.. I can't help but think about it. 

Thank you for supporting me, everyone. It gives me the grace to do all this... and to take care of myself during all this. I hope I give it back to you what you give to me. I adore you all and love you.

DISCORD - https://discord.gg/MXz4Rq6P

May 2023 Patron Update & Discord Server Link

Comments

As someone who overworked myself into chronic and permanent pain by age 34, (that made me unable to work at all for over a year as I went through physical therapy to achieve a “manageable” level of pain) whenever I see a fellow artist wrestling with whether they should push through burnout and/or do joyless draining work, it’s hard for me not to feel like a Ghost of Chronic Pain Future. So let me rattle my spectral chains, of gravy more than ghost, and say “Doooo the things that give you jooooooy! Take things at a healthy paaaace! Your wellbeing is more important than covering every hateful thing the world throws at us, and while advocacy is important there are many forms that can take and one of them is living a healthy life in a world that wants to wear us dooooown! oooOOOOoooo! *awkward well meaning ghost motions*

Robin Childs

Jessie. I appreciate your gratitude towards us (me) as Patrons. But lest you think otherwise... Thank you. Thank you *so much* for being a voice out here. I'd have been lost had I not found your channel (and with a grateful nod to Steve Shives). I wouldn't have felt safe becoming Dezzy if it were not for you, your honesty and your outspokenness, I'd have remained behind the masks I've built. I wouldn't have had the tools you gave me when my oldest adult child came out as transgendered. I have $30 per month, I wish I had more (don't we all wish we had more), but I have this $30 that I'd have spent on something that wouldn't have meant anything. It's so much more meaningful *to me* that I pledge it to you. Be well, Jessie. I'm looking so forward to Identiteaze.

SuperDezzy

I will certainly miss your regular videos but you need to take care of yourself and be well.

Not liking the fact it's May either. Not because I'm 40 next week, but because londlord fecked me over and I'm counting the pennies this month... I can get through, but so much for doing anything fun for my birthday. Looking forward to the things you have planned, and I'm happy that you're slowing the pace a little, I've been really struggling to keep up with all the content being released recently; not just yours.

Berthulf

Look after yourself, Jessie. Do stuff that brings you joy. I know it feels like you always have to be a spokesperson for the big topics as someone who is so often a great voice within our community, but not to your detriment. It is personal, so it's going to take more out of you. Please take time to breathe. I have been loving going through the Star Trek stuff, and watching them alongside older Trek episodes, cause it feels like having a friend to nerd out with and discuss what happened. Super excited for the Identiteaze project. I brings me joy to see people doing things that inspire them. It inspires me too!

LuciferJean

You are pretty prolific in pushing new videos out. Take whatever time you need and what pace works for you. I will still be supporting. Take care of yourself and your needs. 😊❤️

Jessie, it is an honor to be one of your patrons. I am trying to compassionately help everyone understand transgenders in hopes soon people will have true compassion for all people so they can live as their true selves. So far I'm trying to do this in 2 ways. First, I have written a paper titled, “Understanding Transgenders.” I emailed it to every member of the Kansas Senate and House of Representatives. Though the Kansas legislature is predominately Republican, the bill to not allow transgender youth to receive medical care until the age of 21 did not become law as it failed because of the governor’s veto. Hopefully the governor won't need to veto it next year. Second, I have written a $4.99 eBook titled, “Who Killed Who? A Love Story.” The book is for all ages and I hope it helps. I have been told by some that it should be made into a movie??? Jessie, I'm so proud of you and all you are doing!!!

Dave Fisher

Do what works for you. I for one am in a financially stable place and will keep supporting.

FireMermaid

Take all the time you need Jessie. As important as your videos on battling anti-trans rhetoric are (I always find them informative and healing in these tough times) the videos that make you excited and joyful are just as important. Your Star Trek timeline might be one of my favorite videos you’ve ever made, it was so fun and hilarious! When you talk about Identiteaze and the DS9 video you can visibly see the excitement across your face and that is wonderful. I’m sure all your fans agree with me that we wish you the best and would rather you take care of yourself and make the videos that make you happy. Sending love and support your way and I hope you have an incredible May! 💜🖖

Love, Kisses and Warm Nurturing Hugs to You from Me. And remember to be Kind and Loving to yourself so you can give of yourself to the rest of the world the way you do. Thrive!

Erica Peterson

I unreservedly support you when you pass on those videos on the negativity, pain and destruction going on around us that can suck you dry and leave you drained and gasping. Management of burnout requires a whole nother set of skills. At one time in my life I practiced saying 'No' to the mirror. "No, I understand your need for nursing staff tomorrow and also, I have to do non-work now to be available to you in the future. I am not the only one who can do what I do. I give of myself freely and brilliantly and now it's time for me to rest and recharge so I can keep on giving anther day."

Erica Peterson


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