Everybody's Gone for the Pandemic - Grieving in a Post-COVID World

Thank you so much <3

Jessie Earl

This is one of the most stunningly beautiful, powerful, and emotionally affecting videos I've ever seen, and in a way, something I've needed for a very long time. Thank you for making this, and I'm sorry for your loss.

Haha of course it was. And thank you. Sending you love about your gandparents <3

Jessie Earl

<3 <3 <3

Jessie Earl

<3 thank you

Jessie Earl

Sending you love for your aunt <3. It must be hard, but at least we aren't alone in all of this. Thank you for sharing that story with me.

Jessie Earl

Sending you all the love. Thank you. The people we love are always with us... and if that's true, if we die, then all those who were with us continue on in those who loved us.

Jessie Earl

<3 <3 Thank you so much. That means a lot. I'm so glad I got to share here with you.

Jessie Earl

We are all better humans for you sharing your Babah with us. Thank you and please be blessed Jessie! Also, *HI JESSIE'S MOM!!* Waggles fingers!!

SuperDezzy

Thank you so much for sharing this, Jessie. A lot of it really hit home for me. I'm "lucky." I haven't lost anyone to Covid, not exactly (though certain circumstances of the pandemic may have played into some things), but it has been a very long year. Fairly early in the pandemic, I lost my beloved best friend - she didn't die, but she's not in my life any more - and while I know a little bit of "why" I'll never fully understand. It took me a long time to accept that, "she probably just needs some time" I'd convince myself - she got closer to me than anyone had in 15 years, then... In September, another friend did die. By her own hand. It was... a shock, but not a surprise. She had tried before; she'd had a hard life, and had been at war with some serious demons for many years. I miss her a lot. Then just a few weeks ago my cat died - I met her as a stray, at the same place I met my former best friend. Some pets are just special, you don't love them "more" than others; they just have that *something* - and Weezy was an angel, she was a lot of the reason I was able to get through this last year. As it happens, she was older than I'd thought, had this recurring upper respiratory infection she just couldn't kick... turns out that was an early symptom of something else growing. Cancer. She died one year to the day after the last time I saw my friend. I can't say that "helps." God, it doesn't help in the least; but it does put a bow on it. The worst year of my life, all neatly boxed up, Day One to Day Three Hundred Sixty Six. I'm getting older. Not that old, mind. ;) But I'm gonna lose more loved ones. Whether to death or... "other." June 2020-2021 may be the worst 1-year span of my life so far (and there sure are some other contenders, 2014-2015 was a doozy) but there will almost certainly be worse to come. Art helps, you have your videos, I have my music - but it's not like you create something and then you're magically healed. But I think you're on to something: if you love somebody, they're with you. They may be gone for whatever reason, but the memory matters. Even as specific memories fade, you still hold that love within you. I hope you're well - and here's to what I hope is a much less horrid year to come for all of us.

Vince Whitacre

The video had me crying multiple times. And again, I'm so sorry for your loss. The death of your grandmother mirrors what happened to my aunt, my mother's big sister and my de-facto godmother. She died of COVID during the first wave in France, in April 2020. One of my cousins raised hell at the hospital until they agreed to let at least one of her children into the isolation ward; but she was already comatose by then. Essentially she died alone as well. Our part of the family couldn't go there, as travel was restricted then, and to be honest of course it still wouldn't be exactly sensible. Her old house has been sold, so I'll never sit again in that garden. I haven't seen the grave. I see the bottle of alcohol-free Pastis (difficult to get in Germany) sitting on my shelf, my last one, and I catch myself thinking "gotta ask auntie to bring me some more from France next visit", and only then I remember.

Hannah F.

Beautiful, very well done.

Zelda Twinkletoes

This is truly awesome, Jessie. Thanks for sharing this, and helping many of us process something similar.

Scott G

In the second year of uni i lost two of my grandparents within the space of a week. I wasn’t able to see them due to money issues. Looking back, my mental health problems hadn’t allowed me to process that loss. This really helped Jessie. Thank you. Ps: Of course it was THAT video your mum saw.