Balance of Emotional Spectrum on the Path of the Healer

Good afternoon family,

I haven’t been as active as I’d like to be on the Patreon Discord channel, have had a lot on my plate recently but will become more active again by the end of this week when I finish up scheduled coaching sessions before taking a break from them for a bit to focus more on Patreon, shop orders, family and most importantly myself. I’ve been spending a lot of time compiling notes on a PFS/PAS/PSSD protocol for a client I’m working with so that’s taking up most of my time between orders.

A few weeks ago, I had a brief fever after taking care of my wife and daughter who had a mild flu. I had been slacking on my iron management practices and it set off an iron overload cascade with how much red meat (1-2 lbs/day) I’ve been eating since March. The final straw that broke the camel’s back. Likely had been building up prior to the fever, but optimal redox had protected me from the inflammation and oxidative stress from excessive stored unbound iron. Hereditary hemochromatosis genetics are a pain in the ass. Easier meals aren’t always best without all factors in individual context accounted for. Reintroduced weekly cod liver, going to make goat liver pâté to have small amounts more regularly (copper, zinc, vitamin A/D, vitamin B2/B6/B9/B12), began megadosing IP6, and am going to find a blood donation center next week after completed coaching sessions that I can begin to visit more regularly, hoping they’ll test full spectrum iron panel without any issues. After the brief fever, I began to experience severe brain fog, fatigue, muscle aches, locked joints (shoulder and knee), full body itching without rash (liver), and had to drop my weight lifting by 1/2 weights. Totally out of the ordinary and after about a week, I felt something was seriously wrong. Immediately started on IP6 and it’s been gradually clearing up, donating blood should have me back at 100% soon enough.

In addition to all of this, there was someone who had reached out to me who told me he was going to end his life if he was unable to address his underlying health issues which included full body neuropathy (nerves felt like they were on fire), rumination, anxiety, intrusive thoughts, sympathetic nervous system activation, frozen bowel motility, etc. He started to make gradual progress with what I recommended to him, but when he visited a doctor, they diagnosed him with an autoimmune disorder that they said was attacking his nervous system. I fear the worst case scenario as he had been unresponsive and inactive online since he mentioned this. If this is the case, Rest In Peace to Lance. You will be missed and loved forever, brother.

I’ve only had one other person I was helping end their life. Her name was Shelley. I was helping her taper off high dose longterm (20+ years) benzodiazepine dependency (prescribed for PTSD and anxiety). She was also making excellent progress, but her issue was she was living with her physically and abusive mother due to her health circumstances that retriggered those memories of trauma. Rest In Peace to you too, Shelley. Loved, and never forgotten.

Both of these situations took a heavy emotional toll on me. This is unavoidable on the path of the healer. You will have people who are not quite ready to implement dietary and lifestyle changes who drop off, then you have your worst case scenarios. I reached out to my older brother, I explained both situations and told him about the HIGH highs (recently helped a woman on 10+ years of benzodiazepines taper off without withdrawal and another mother who has a son with schizophrenia, which is now resolved), then these LOW lows. He offered some wise words that helped me to gain perspective, “There are no ups and downs, there is always perfect balance in nature. Only disruption of the mind.” I’ve still been reflecting on these words each time I’m reminded of those situations.

So I will leave you all with: there are no ups and downs, what ultimately matters is your perspective of the situations in your life. Fortunately for us, this perspective is constantly evolving and can be changed at the drop of a pin. There will be moments that cause you to be sad, upset, depressed, etc., but then we have the moments that cause us to be happy, elated, content, etc. to balance it all out. Life is all about balance, it is only when imbalance is apparent when dis-order or dis-ease becomes most evident. There is very little you cannot overcome in this life with this perspective.

Just wanted to explain a bit about what’s been going on with me, open up a bit because admittedly I rarely do until I’ve resolved the issue, and to offer perspective for anyone who reads this. I am still in the process of writing up the GABAergic recovery protocol for alcohol, benzodiazepines, gabapentenoids, GHB, and research chemicals. Should be posted up in the next week or two.

As always, love to you all,

Daniel aka Grimhood 🙏💗🕊🌟🪷🦧