I'm back!

Long story short: I've burned out and was also suffering mentally from the stress of my private life and my work. That was the reason why I took an unplanned hiatus to take a break away from everything and have essentially dipped out.

I am aware that there is no excuse for the radio silence from me for many months now and I apologize for lack of content as well. I messed up. I know I should have said something and it was irresponsible of me to stay quiet.

I've since then have taken enough time to take care of myself and get my health back up to the point now where I am mentally and physically much fitter than I was just a few months ago.

I'm confident now that I can continue working on my own animation, render and model projects for the forseeable future again without much interruption.

To be honest, I am condensing a very difficult time into a few short sentences, but rest assured that I have taken every measure I could to reach out for help and get back on my feet again, thanks to my friends and family who have been supportive of me. I am also seeing a therapist now to track my mental state and I am very glad I had made that first step and to have found someone in the first place.

In the meantime, I have slowly but consistently been ramping up work on model commissions in order to continue operating, but I wasn't ready yet to work on my own projects full time as I still needed to recover and focus on self care during that time.

Speaking of those commissions, the images I'm sharing here have nothing to do with the animations I'm working on and they are also not entirely my work. These are heavily modified model edits I do of preexisting models (which I call "Bustifications" lol) with new rigs. The white haired girl, you will see in the future a bit more of in terms of bondage. I hope you appreciate knowing that I have been active still, just for different unrelated gigs.

At the moment of writing this post, my schedule for the year is out-of-date and is subject to change very soon: https://trello.com/b/B99BHeTJ/busty-damsels

This does of course mean that all of my planned projects for this year are going to be delayed and pushed back down the schedule.

However, I have learned from my mistakes and this time I won't be putting any hard deadlines (but rather soft deadlines) to finish them. I will instead work on whatever I feel is going to work for me during that point in time and I will update on progress much more often, rather than focusing on finishing it as fast as possible and the schedule will also change as time passes, so some projects might get delayed further while others might be finished sooner.

On another note, I've finally found my rhythm and balance now on how and when I want to work and I'm very happy with the progress that I made. The difference now is that I have the energy and the willpower to work on projects I am personally interested in working on, which don't require me to force myself to work or punish myself for failing to meet deadlines.

It was a stupid idea to self sabotage myself like this, thinking that I don't deserve to be happy and treating it like it's a super serious business and not for what it really is - which is fun.

Lastly, I want to say thank you for those who are still sticking around and are supporting me still. Even to those who have supported me in the past and no longer do as well: Thank you!

You'll hear from me again very soon as I have some new works to share!