Progress Update

Good Morning Family,

Well yesterday was the day JJ went into foster care. I know I sound like a broken record but it's frustrating watching someone make bad decisions. Unfortunately we have no say anymore. At this point we can only hope he wakes up and accepts the help he needs. There's so many emotions rolling around and they're all sad/frustrating. I miss having him around, even when he was being a brat. But I also know we couldn't help him because he refused it from us. At some point we just lost him. That's what's most heartbreaking. I thought things would be challenging but I never expected an explosion. I was in communication with the youth shelter all along and we even agreed if he shows ANY effort into trying to do better, we'd take him back. Unfortunately JJ decided to double down on his bad behavior and further escalated things by telling counselors we were emotionally and physically abusing him. It's like he suddenly decided we didn't matter to him anymore.

Even knowing we made the right decision doesn't make it easier. I really wish he'd have come around before we lost any ability to help but that's where we are now. It feels so awful like our family broke in ways I never expected or was prepared for. I worry for JJ because he's so confident he's going to find "freedom" in Foster Care, but I don't think it's at all going to help him or even be what he thinks it is. Unfortunately it seems when kids go to youth centers they meet other youths who fill their head with all kinds of lies and rose tinted experiences. It's unbelievably heartbreaking. The last therapist JJ had warned us he was on a mission to hit rock bottom and we needed to prepare the family to be able to handle it. I honestly was hoping him hearing that from her would make him realize what was actually happening but it seemed he took it as a challenge to do worse. At the end of the day you cannot help someone who doesn't want to be helped and we told JJ for months we were here for him and tried our best to understand how to help him but even then he was telling us one thing and doing another.

I bring all of this up as it's what's in my head when I'm trying to write comics. I'll get there but right now it's very difficult. I'm going to try more live twitch streams of working on the game. I'm trying to keep busy and hopefully working on the game will help me get back into the right mindset to be inspired again. Thank you to everyone who's stopped by to show support. <3

We really appreciate all of your support during this time. Life has a lot of challenges but having people there to talk to and comfort during them really helps a lot. Thank you for that. Biggest hug!

-Bryan