HoGW Valentine Special: Poems for Rebecca

Author's Notes:

I got caught up in the holiday spirit and wrote some love poems. The first time I've done so in a long while so I thought it would nice to post them for you guys to read as well. There are three poems. The first will be posted here but the other two will be on patreon. Don't worry! They will be public and thus, free for all to access and read but only for 24 hours after which they'll become patron only. 

This will be just like our Christmas special. Only, this time when you read the poems please try and like the post as well. It helps a lot in getting my profile displayed on the site. Last time, we got hundreds of views and only a single like. Show some love people, it's Val's Day! 

Updates will resume on Thursday and our Schedule will be Thursdays and Saturdays from now on. Look forward to it!

Without further ado, read the first of Poems for Rebecca. The link to the others is below. 

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When I first loved you

We lie here now clasping hands

I turn to watch you, to see

Your chest rise and fall with steady breaths

And feel my own fill with heady bursts

Bursts of an emotion so pure and uplifting

Bursts of an elixir that’s truly intoxicating

Something that makes my head spin and my breath catch

And leaves me wishing the moment would draw for an eternity

When was it that this begun?

That I found myself reacting to your presence

That I began aching for your touch

And my time away from you seem dull and lifeless

When was it that I first loved you?

When did I? How did I? What caused it?

A holy trinity of interrogatives assaults me

But I am still left unclear.

When did I first love you?

Was it when we first met?

The instant when my eyes sought yours

And found themselves looking into their hopes.

An entrancement that persists till today.

Or was it when you said your name

And my mind seized it like the gospel

Knowing it to be a life saving truth?

Perhaps it’s when we crossed that street

And our hands found each other

An embrace of fingers that seemed so right

So fitting. Like it was always meant to be.

It was definitely before you said yes

Though that was when my heart swelled and leapt,

Exulted that you loved me too.

For it made me love you more.

But even with this

I do not know when I first loved you

And I’m not sure I truly care

When it started or whence it came

All I know is that I do so now.

I love you! Dear Lord, I love you!

Irrevocably, wholly, truthfully

And I will never, ever stop.

When I first loved you (Alter)

You asked me once

When I first loved you.

That you might trace and recount

The beginning of our love story

When I couldn’t answer

You were torn and disappointed

Confused as to what that meant

And you asked again

When I first loved you.

Honestly?

I do not know.

It crept up on me.

It snuck into me.

It stuck with me.

I cannot say when it happened.

When I first loved you.

I can tell you however

When I first knew.

It was when I found

That I lived for your smile.

When I caught myself

Searching for it.

That little quirk of your lips

That made me feel accomplished

That made all my ramblings

Suddenly become worth it.

It was when you held me close,

Comforting me, soothing me,

With your words and your warmth

When I sensed

That I could come to you

And lay my burdens aside

“We do it together”, you said

And I stared in disbelief

At how right you were for me.

It was every time we fought

Over issues small and large

And I was left alone, angry and afraid

When I experienced

The cold of loneliness

And was angry with myself, afraid

That I had brought on our end

And then strove my hardest

To prevent any such fate

Each of these moments

Each of these acts

Led me to my epiphany

That indeed, I truly loved you

But above all of these

There was the day

That I realised

Just who I had beside me

And resolved to keep you.

It was that day

That I discovered

I could not have a life without you.

I had no dreams you weren’t in

That I would rather not imagine

That there was no “us”,

No “we”, no “this”, no you

For there’s nothing without you

Certainly, there’s no me without you

That was probably it.

No. It was undoubtedly then

That the heavens brightened

And I first knew

That a resolve was formed

To never let you go

To remain with you for eternity

That was the day

When I first loved you

My Heart Skips A Beat

My heart skips a beat

Every time my hands touch yours

Every time my eyes meet yours

It’s exhilarating, electrifying

This shot of pleasure

That floods my veins

And sends this dark heart leaping

Thus, my heart skips a beat

Every time I gaze upon you

And perceive your fine cut form

It’s startling, alarming

How easily you affect me

How deeply you entrance me

And make my heart forget its place

Why won’t my heart skip a beat?

When all you have to do

Is touch me and smile

Listen close and laugh

Hold this hand tight

Or even hug me and cry

Why won’t it caper to the next one?

My heart skips a beat

It doesn’t need it

You’ve supplanted it

Displaced that life sustaining throb

You’ve taken some of my burdens

And given me a place to rest

Granting this heart some needed respite

My heart skips a beat

And it’s because of you

It’s truly for you and by you

Showing our bonds, our love

Completing me, fulfilling you

For I am as much a part of you

As you are of me.