thecarlotta

Good lord, what a week.

Added 2017-07-27 04:29:10 +0000 UTC

I'm going to try to hustle and get everything posted in the next few days, but I need to be honest with all of you, I'm having a really rough day(s).

Last week my dog sprouted a freaky tumor almost over night. I brought her to the vet, and he said we needed it removed immediately. In less than 24 hours she was on the operating table, and the vet seemed hopeful-pending pathology reports.

Sometimes you hear that deaths happen in waves. It seems that way. Last weekend a model acquaintance passed away, and I knew of 4 other deaths in my friend's circles. Today I decided to go to Universal Studios with a few girlfriends, and literally as I was walking in I got a message that a friend from college was put in hospice care as her breast cancer had spread throughout. While trying to process this without having a breakdown, an hour later I got a call from my vet that they got the pathology report on my dog, and she has terminal cancer. After shedding a few stress tears, I let myself mostly enjoy my time at the theme park, but as soon as I stepped into my doorway and saw my dog, I just had a meltdown crying attack. My friend from college has 2 children under 5. I know life isn't fair, but good lord, talk about getting dealt a shitty hand. I wish I would have reached out more, sometimes we get so wrapped up in our own lives. I need to call people-let them know they are loved and important to me.

As far as my dog Coco, I have been through so much with her. I adopted her over a decade ago, and she is truly like my child. When I went through some of the most difficult times of my life, she traveled by my side in a Uhaul from Florida all the way to California. She is such a good dog, and I hate this so much. At 15 years old, she is still spry and energetic. She loves to chase tennis balls and slide around my hardwood floor. Her spirits are good for now. I hope she remains happy, and I hope that she drifts away in her sleep. Truly the worst part of pet ownership is that we live longer than them.

I hate being such a downer, but I just needed to vent a little. I'll have the next photo set up soon.

xoxo

Carlotta