Important update post (paused billing & commissions)

TLDR : Getting top surgery early January, I'll be pausing billing for that month & instead rest + work through the commission waitlist, anyone pledged and interested in a commission can fill a form!

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Paused billing : 

• This means no money will be drawn from your account for January unless you upgrade a tier during January, see it as a skipped/freebie month (server remains unchanged, I'll still stream and post there still!

• Due to the November billinng update, the pause goes from the date i pause it (will be December 31st to avoid double charges) and so pledges should start back up again starting February first!

• New members will be charged if pledging in January since it still unlocks 100's of posts etc

• That, as per usual, also means that if you wish to upgrade for February, do so when February rolls around to avoid double charges, if you want to downgrade do so in January so to not be charged extra in February

• Note that I will not refund either new pledgers nor upgrades since they still open up past rewards, if you have experienced repeated automatic cancelled/declined pledges look into it to avoid being booted if you didn't intend to cancel!

• I'll also hopefully have caught up with projects & be able to work on more text/lore/tedious sections of story stuff! With lots to come in February for sure!

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Top Surgery :

WOO!! A huge step & journey the past few weeks, it's been a scary & stressful time but I'm excited and happy for the future. It's all thanks to you patrons that I've been able to save up for this, and for that I'm endlessly grateful!

I've been lucky enough to be in a position where I could pay for the surgery out of pocket (approx 4900 $) thanks to you guys! I've felt stable and fortunate enough to not need any fundraising. It has of course however still left a major gap in my savings and I know a couple people mentioned wanting to help out further, so although it's never ever any requirement nor pressure, the option to support & donate a lil can be done with paypal <3 Noting who it's from is optional, I don't ever look at emails or names so it can also be done anonymously if so desired

Surgery date is the 9th of January, and so I'll be mostly chilling the first while & see how recovery goes, I should be able to draw rather soon after though!

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More about the trans experience :

I consider myself a demigirl, and I only really explored and embraced this for a year or two, however I've worn binders over the course of almost 5 years, never felt fully home in my body and can look back at recognise terrible body dysphoria now. I think the big hurdle was me not feeling like top surgery nor being trans was something I could be or get, I didn't know enough about the enby spectrum nor the beautiful and various experiences of gender-identities.

Still feeling feminine in certain aspects definitely muddied my ability to look further into myself, especially as someone who's become very used to just pushing through both physical and emotional discomfort. If you can't tell though, I've been able to explore it further lots via my OCs, it's been a big comfort!

Even after receiving the referral and having literal papers defining me as trans, I felt undeserving of it for a while, because it's still not been as bad as so many others, like being misgendered/passing & conforming to societal expectations not being a major issue most of my life. It's instead fully been an internal and body-related struggle that's been both emotionally and physically damaging.

On the more positive side, I've received so much support: although a bit hesitant and mostly unsure; parents have come around and are there to help and wanting me to life my life authentically, many wonderful friends whom Iäve been able to talk with, share experiences and get so much insight and positive encouragement from! As well as doctors and a psycologist who really care for their patients. I've been so so so lucky in my situation, and I can only hope it keeps getting better from here!

Getting to pursue my passion whilst being myself is a dream come true, and I'm hoping at least someone might find comfort or joy reading about my experience. I'd be thrilled to hear any and all stories or other from those who are trans, and possibly if there are people here at the first step of exploring gender further themselves, my platforms are always meant to be a safe space <3

I could ramble about this forever, but thank you so much if you made it all the way down, hope everyone has had a good 2024, may 2025 be kinder and nicer to everyone!