Wednesday Blog.
Added 2019-01-24 07:55:01 +0000 UTCI know I owe you guys a video but I wanted to take a second to get real with you all, so today you get a blog. A blog about my real real life. About the not so happy stuff you guys see on the regular. A big part of my life.
This week has been hard. This year has been hard. I know a lot of people can say the same. A year ago I lost my grandma. In a lot of ways she was one of my best friends. She called me three times a week at least. We would play cards and drink milkshakes and watch movies in her hospital bed when her cancer put her in the hospital. She loved me with her whole damn heart and I miss her every day.
Two of the women in this picture have had cancer. They are two of the strongest and kindest women I have ever know. This is what a lot of our days looked like. No makeup, glasses and buns, hospital time together. Though I wish the circumstances were different I wouldn’t trade it for the world.
Grief is a weird thing. It’s not the same for everyone. It’s ok if it takes time. It’s ok if it doesn’t. Sometimes the sadness really weighs down on me, and it’s hard to want to stream or take pictures or even want to get out of my pjs. But I want you to know how much GP has done for me, you much you all have done for me. You bring me joy. You make the hard days a little easier. You make me feel like I’m not alone. You give me patience and understanding when I need it, and love when I need it most. For that I am so thankful. My life is so much better with you all in it.
So I am sorry you don’t get a fun video of me doing fun things this week. But you do get a little real ness. And some pictures that’s mean the world.
Stay strong nerd herd. And love with your whole heart.
🖤🖤🖤 Bells
Comments
Bells my heart goes out to you i have lost both my mum and dad so i know how hard it can be.i can see you have a good heart and are strong you ladys of gp put your heart and soul into everything you do please never stop being the angels that you are much love
2019-02-01 00:50:09 +0000 UTCThat made me tear up!
2019-01-27 08:09:28 +0000 UTCBells I know how tough loss is. I just lost one of my best friends and to me it sounds like your grandmother was one to you. Glad you are willing to share something so close. Not only do we give you strength but you also give it to us. Your words here today are helping me cope with my loss and I am glad you found GP and the nerdherd is glad we have you. Love you and may all your great memories never fade.
2019-01-25 06:13:21 +0000 UTCLife isn’t always happy. You can’t appreciate the highs of joy if you don’t know the lows of pain. And though they are painful, don’t ever let go of your memories. Regardless of what happens in your life I want you to know how much joy your personality and spirit brings me.
2019-01-24 17:04:37 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing with us, Bells. I hope you always remember how much joy you bring to others and how truly special you are.
2019-01-24 13:19:54 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing this with us <3
Bleedingreen
2019-01-24 12:39:09 +0000 UTCi agree with matthew Allin, its an honour that you share this with us. Thank you for that and don‘t forget that there are people all over the world who wants to support you every time you need it.😊
2019-01-24 12:29:27 +0000 UTCThank you for sharing this with us. No need to apologize. Life isn't always sunshine and rainbows (eventhough I'm sure most of us would prefer it that way.) Loseing someone that you were close to is one of the most painfull lessons that life teaches us. Most of us here (myself included) are no stranger to the pain of loss. But thankfully we all have each other to lean on when it becomes too much. Take all the time you need. I will always be there to lift you up when your sad or just need someone to talk to. Just say the word. <3.
Matthew Allin
2019-01-24 09:08:21 +0000 UTC
