Hot and Cold
Added 2020-07-06 11:05:02 +0000 UTCThis feeling also extends to how I feel about myseslf i.e. I did a slightly good thing = look at me go wahoooo; I did a minor fuckup = I am the absolute worst aaaaaaa
So.... something that I haven't really talked about before is that for a couple of weeks now, I've committed to self dxing as bipolar. Self diagnosis is something kind of controversial but most people in mental health circles online agree that it's worthwhile if you can't go to a doctor for whatever reason (and this is to say nothing of the fact that mental health diagnoses are notoriously hard to get for certain conditions.... GPs in my country are Not Good at this sort of thing)
I've been tracking my moods on a chart for over six months now and I can say with almost certainty that I'm bipolar. Realising this also explains a lot of things about my life in the past and general struggles I've had although I'm still figuring it out.
It's weird because like, I feel really comfortable talking to people about mental health and my specific diagnoses and how they affect me, and I think one of the reasons for that is because I got an official diagnosis when I was in university but rying to talk to people about self dxing as bipolar is actually really hard and makes me feel Super vulnerable in a way that nothing else does. I feel like people don't take me seriously or they jump straight to telling me it's just confirmation bias and I'm tricking myself into thinking I'm bipolar which..... idk why other people think they know ur mental health better than you do y'know ( :
Anyway hm, I guess I just wanted to say Something about this haha ;;;
Also sorry I didn't upload any comics last week! I'm going to work twice as hard this week to make up for it yeeeee
