Menagerie
Added 2020-06-16 14:35:24 +0000 UTCI've been thinking a lot about my tendency to collect behaviours and phrases and mannerisms and how I've been doing it basically my whole life. My intention isn't to be insincere but just to try and be normal I guess. It always seemed like just existing came naturally to everyone else whereas for me it kinda feels like I have to do homework on Everything haha. I think it probably didn't help that I grew up being constantly told that I was 'socially retarded' by my parents so I think I developed a hypersensitivity to things like tone and body language as a result.
I feel pretty guilty about being like this, but I also try to keep reminding myself that literally everyone learns through imitation and picking and choosing what are going to be parts of yourself doesn't like, make you a bad person idk.
