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Laura's Last Day

Added 2024-05-30 16:38:47 +0000 UTC

Warning: Sad Things Ahead

This is probably the last time I'll bring this up in this way, as today is the last day I'll be seeing my therapist. She's retiring at the end of this month and due to confidentiality and all that I won't be able to speak to her again, so it feels like there's a lot riding on today.

My words just don't feel like enough to express how much she's helped me and how much I love her. When I was a child I had a promise to myself: if I couldn't stand any more life by 40, I was going to check myself out. She managed to save me when I was 39.

I've never talked about this publicly, but I want to, so I'm going to:

I'm a survivor of CSA, Sex Trafficking and Torture. I didn't escape that situation until I was 22. I've felt lost and incapable of feeling any peace of mind for as long as I can remember. I deal with CPTSD, Major Depressive Disorder and Dissociative Identity Disorder along with physical disabilities from the abuse.

Before meeting Laura, I didn't believe I would ever feel any other way, but I do now and I don't know how to thank someone for so much.

I made most of these things but bought a couple:

2 turquoise sterling silver necklaces (made by me)
2 copper ceramic star necklaces (made by me)
1 Erstwilder Brooch
A set of stickers I designed (made by me)
Some stickers with hand painted back boards (made by me)
The drawing of Lars & his younger self (made by me)
A clay trinket box w/lid (made by me)
A set of Vera Bradley jewelry/makeup cases because I found out she really likes the brand.

I hope she likes it. I don't mean to overwhelm her. I'm just going to miss her so much. ❤️