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COMIC: Space Camp: Day Three

Added 2021-12-11 03:17:37 +0000 UTC

(Start on Day One or catch up on Day Two)

On to Day Four!

Thanks for your understanding about that missing page! And, hey, if you have my phone number, hit me up and I'll share it with you-- it's just a subject that's a little too sensitive for me to go posting anywhere online, y'know? Ideally I'll get a publisher to pick up this project, and with the guidance of an editor I'll feel more confident about how to handle that page. It's not even a big deal? But the internet is insane and I'm doing my best not to give it anything that could be used as fuel against me. Again. /:)

Of course I was doing one of my periodic Daily Photo projects during this time and this is the picture I referenced for the fourth panel on page 34. For the visually pedantic, my outfit doesn't match my description on the first page because I took this picture on August 2nd while the day I'm writing about here took place on August 6th.

Revisiting my notes all these years later is such a gift.

On August 6th, 2019, I wrote about my collage,

"My piece showed cleaning hands trying to scrub out the loud thoughts in my brain- change. Needs a follow-up piece showing the loud thoughts having a place in my mind, cohabitating, not under attack and not interfering with the rest of my thoughts."

While just a few days ago on December 7th, 2021 -totally not thinking about that text from this chapter in any way- I completed my daily gratitude collage that illustrates the caption, "Grateful for Good Brain days"

It wasn't a Good Brain Day because I didn't have any bad thoughts. It was a Good Brain Day because I was cohabitating with my bad thoughts. They were there, because they always are, and I could acknowledge them and still carry on with the rest of my day and feel appreciation and joy for the rest of the elements of my life.

I just.

Man.

I'm doin' it.

IT IS RARELY EASY. IT TAKES WORK. I WISH I DIDN'T HAVE TO WORK SO HARD TO KEEP MY BRAIN FUNCTIONAL, IT FUCKING SUCKS.

But.

I can do it. I am doin' it.

Erika of 2019, you're gunna get there. Hang on, 'cos you're gunna get there.

(I will, of course, share the story behind my Dec. 7th collage in my December Daily Collage round-up at the end of the week)