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some piano playing

I used to be so frustrated with myself when I was younger that I couldn't play piano infront of people ( camera too same thing ) , I had to be on my own in an empty house and a good time that the neighbours weren't back home, but I ended up realising that playing for myself was just enough, I made it to grade 6 but just realised I was regurgitating pure muscle memory as opposed to actually feeling the pieces. I haven't played In over a year. first video is my second time trying, and the final video is the first time I touched the piano since that year break ( as you can tell still both equally frustrated  - I just hate forgetting things) lol the fact im even uploading this here with all those mistakes when I know I can do better and have better technique, is crazy cause I would've NEVER showed that, but iit doesn't scare me as much as before I. just felt so grateful to feel a piano again. I was never techicnially VERY good at it, but I really really feel it, especially the Ludovico pieces. I would sell my kidney to go see his old live concerts, those albums make me feel soo much. but I treated myself yesterday and bought a ticket for his upcoming concert, its a new album, doesn't have as much nostalgic value to me than the others, but I still know im going to love it and im soooooooo excited I could cry. 

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I would love to know the names of the pieces you're playing here- and please don't feel "cringe" (horrible word and concept of our era 🙃) you should be so proud of your skill, I could listen to this all day!! Also, is that a new tattoo I see or am I just unobservant? Looks like someone carrying someone else of equal size, which has always been a very striking and emotive image to me. I think everyone has the inner strength deep inside of them to be able to carry the weight of someone in need, metaphorically I guess, even if just for a mile.

This was so beautiful, and ive always wished I could play like this. Felt very special to be able to witness as well. My favorite parts are when you're "la la la..." trying to find the note; immediately brought me back to watching my father sitting at the piano playing something beautiful when I was young, stuttering around the same part a few times before he got it right. It's the most beautiful and nostalgic instrument for me.

Great! can’t wait for it to arrive , love. 🤘🏻❤️

If you have a chance or some free time check out on YT Yatao music- milky way, i get my inspiration from him, that certain melody just takes me away in emotions that i have trouble feeling sometimes, just close my eyes and drift you know 🖤

Tony Avila

Ahhh yesss the handpan is so wonderful if you do start, the “Kurd” pans are the easiest when starting, and getting lost in the energy they give out when playing is such a experience, im not the best yet but still enough to fill that feeling when playing and thats all that matters, great community around the instrument too!

Tony Avila

my mum uses it as a table. it was 99p by the way! for real lol

omggg why did that make me almsot cry. it really is like meeting an old frined

:'(

id also love to learn handpan OMG thank u so much for remidning me that. the sound sends shivers down my spine.

you are so right! they watched me since i was young going to school and then i left home at 18 and now every now and again they hear the piano and theyre like, oh yes, her. lol. and why is it too late to start piano? i know its daunting and life isnt t hat simple. i really wanted to start the drum's but i dont know, time!effort!

on my way to post ur t shirt now btw!!!! will mark it off on depop x

Nah, you did great! Better than anything I could have done for sure lol. Don’t forget that even Beethoven had to start somewhere. Absolutely no shame in having room for improvement :)

omg i was watching ludovico talk about someting similar to this in an interview just yesterday!!!! wonderfully said, i am feeling a bit em barssed at it now. it wasnt very good.

amazing Sara. I Loved it. I absolutely love piano.

Shane

You play so beautiful

Wes Bentley

I love watching you play and just getting lost in the music, swaying with the rhythm. You're clearly very passionate about it! You accidentally referred to the musical notes as words but it's kind of accurate, with music being a language of its own that can express emotions even when you can't find the words or to people who don't even speak the same language as you. It was very beautiful, and the little mistakes just make it more raw and real. Besides, I think you sounded amazing <3 especially if you haven't played in so long! Also, I remember you posting on instagram with a drum kit before, was that yours as well? How many instruments do you know how to play? Just playing 1 instrument is very impressive to me :)

Lady of many talents

Thank you for sharing - the music and your thoughts. You make it seem like getting back in touch with an old friend and embracing after a long absence. I'm glad you could feel the piano again and not get caught up in imperfections. What does it matter to not be perfect? ... And it's nice to see the piano used for something other than a footrest during dinnertime.☺

Ben Chan

You never cease to surprise. Never.

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I enjoyed this alot🦋 i almost got into piano as well back then, but life took me down a different path 😔 but none the less im glad you found some chill time to tap back into your musical heart piece youv been missing for a while🖤 and im Sure the neighbors were like “shes back” when they herd you😄 your just refreshing there ears nothing wrong with that lol i always like to think the piano is a pain instrument, throw your pain into those keys and they hit different , a beautiful sound really…im trying to learn the Handpan another beautiful and spiritual instrument you can flow and get lost in 🦋 😃

Tony Avila

As if your fingers don't already bring enough beauty into the world! Thank you so much for sharing this, mistakes and all.  The music, the mistakes, your reactions, your frustrations, your memories, it all physically evokes YOUR personal relationship to the music in a way that a technically perfect performance couldn't. I can't play any instruments, so I've never got to experience this feeling of coming back to the keys after years and lovingly struggling with the music. Wow, thank you for letting us watch this. It inspires me to return to writing. (btw, I promise i sent that Instagram pic with the quote from that Allegro poem about playing the piano hours before watching this, but, HA!, what a coincidence :) Will you keep practicing? 

i cant even describe how beautifully you played the piano and im happy to see you conquering your fears

Also glad I’m back on this Patreon, I ordered a black logo sticker xx

All I can say is , I’m so proud of you my love xx ❤️


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