SaraManganeseASMR

confused, coping , im fine, update , venting?

Added 2023-07-15 23:09:26 +0000 UTC

I had so many plans to film and get tons done today but just found out someone I dearly loved took his own life today and I am in jus total shock. im confused and upset and sad and I usually hate these typer of posts because its making it about me and its nothgin to do with me but im getting fucked up instead of filming instead so this right now seems like a good idea to me. I am still struggling to process it as I type this. please dont send condolences. I know u mean well I promise but last time my friend died it was just difficult to see RIP x 500 in my message on all platforms and I struggles a lot although I guess its my fault for putting it up there but I dont know what to do... anyways. long love endless love to u H20 we called him, he called himself. he was so so troubled, and many hated his guts, but I loved him. he was just lost. I love u h20. I will now write this down on paper to make it more special and less weird lol that im writing this on a patreon post to h20 ,... ? sorry . for me its weird, but im sure im overthinking. anyways, I will start making videos tomorrow, maybe it will help me get mind off. I wish I was there when he did it, I wish I could have spoken to him, god I want to explode!