"It's called pain and gain, don't be a little bitch!"

Time for a pain update!  Man does medication totally do the trick lol.  While I still have bouts of extreme pain as far as my shoulder goes, the medication really is helping.  It gets to where so long as I don't move it around much, it doesn't hurt at all.  Then of course the meds wear off and it starts hurting like a mother fucker.  My eye actually started hurting a little bit last night too, it was weird, it was like a headache that was just in that one spot where the stitches are.  

I'm going up to Chicago this weekend, and even though I'm managing a lot of pain, it'll be great to get out of town for a couple of days, largely to see a new and very awesome and important person in my life right now =)  I felt bad for getting in this accident a week before us getting together, I even said last night "shit, I was going to ask if you wanted to go to Six Flags while we're up there," but it's ok because she replied "oh that's fine, I hate rollercoaster."  So that totally works out lol.  Or maybe we could go there anyway and just stare at them and people watch.

I've got the Midnight Screenings to go to tonight, so I'm curious to see how that goes.  Luckily the movie isn't terribly long, and I seem to have no problem sitting for a period of time.  I'm sure that in that video, I'll probably be like I was in the "Ouch" video where I was just kinda lethargic and tired.  Brian is seeing the movie with me, and Brian can easily carry a review like a champ.  Really everyone in the team can.  Sarah is a master at carrying a video if the other person doesn't feel like talking much.  

I know that I had been going through a lot of stuff in the past few months, and I feel terrible that I've made my friends and loved ones so worried, but I've assured everyone that I'm fine, and I'll be ready to get back to work and get things back to normal once I heal.  Actually I felt pretty back to normal before the clumsy ass porch thing happened.  

What I really want to do is go back to making extremely dark movies like I did before the site take off.  I love my dark movies, and I miss making them.  I've had ideas floating in my head for about 10 years, but I never made them because once the site took off, we focused more towards comedies like "Game Boys," "The Hooker with a Heart of Gold," and "The Cinema Snob Movie."  I do love those movies, in fact I think Hooker is probably our best one, but there's definitely something I miss about making a true blue straight forward exploitation movie, like we did with "Cheap" and "Midnight Heat."

There's a rape/revenge movie that I wrote a long time ago that I might revisit.  "Midnight Heat 2" is dead for obvious reasons, and "Shot on Shitteo" currently can't be released for legal reasons, which now more than ever makes that movie our "Day the Clown Cried."  Our next step regarding that will be refunding those who paid for a preorder of that DVD.  I apologize severely to those people, and we'll make it up to you.  I promise our future movies will be all kinds of dark and seedy.  

When I shot the vlog yesterday, it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be to edit it.  I kept the mouse where it was, but used my left hand for it.  Granted that was just a vlog which required very little editing, so I don't know what it would be like doing something bigger like a Snob episode or a Tequila and Bonetti episode, but I'll cross that bridge when I come to it.